ikin's life

irock kapak..

li've just completed my assignment kat Seremban.. as usual, my working hours sampai 2am.. but, x der la stressful sgt as I was in Sunway and Yeos..

I vouched 100% for Housing Dvlpmnt Acct.. Buat mcm nak vomit blood jer.. and, I was also assigned several section for semi-active subsi.. luckily, the seniors were very nice.. I learnt a lot frm this assignment.. they were really patient to teach me.. =)

I worked frm mon-sat frm 9am - 2am..kalau balik awal, around 11 pm.. biasanya, balik ari sabtu ptgdr Seremban..there is a bond btwn us sb working together almost 24 hours a day, 6 days per week..

i am the only malay girl over there.. sometimes, rasa mcm sedih sgt, sb x der geng nak gi solat sesama, nak gi lunch makan makanan melayu.. but, nasib baik, I have another 2 malay guys team mates kat sana..

our hotel just nearby to the client's office.. cam, x sampai 2 minutes, dah sampai.. heheheh =) client ni kat Seremban 2.. it is an undeveloped area.. usually, we will go to Jusco for dinner.. there is no other option.. so, spjg 1 bulan, my life is about audit.. kalau balik KL pun, just berehat kat bilik and tidur sepuas2nya..

BUT, itu semua masa last month.. currently, I am in another small client which is near tu Kelana Jaya.. ka sana paling lambat balik kul 8mlm.. paling awal: 5.30 sharp... pergghhh best ssgt..and, I meet my own classmate yg terpisah since spm.. tak sangka sgt dpt jumpa ngan Aishah.. Dia keje bhgn r&d kat situ...

so, ari ni , kitaorang keluar and makan2 and sembang2. bestnyeee bila dpt jumpa kawan lama yg satu geng.. she is still the same.. ari ni, dpt makan shakeys, bila vcd MY GIrl (drama korea) and beli cd kerispatih.. dah lama sgt ikin x beli cd and tgk drama korea.. lately ni, I like to hear Kerispatih song.. lagu dia slow2 tapi best..

then, I went to her house... tgk album lama2.. hehehhe.. mcm x sangka jer cepat masa berlalu.. terigt dulu, ikin bukannya antara budak yg pandai and popular.. but, Alhamdulilah, ikin dah ada pekerjaan skrg.. masa kat Mrsm dulu, ikin selalu rs tertekan.. mungkin sb environment budak pandai2 kot.. and, makes me feel inferior.. and Allah selalu uji ikin dpt markah rendah..

bagi ikin, in mrsm, beri tamparan yg hebat dgn markah ujian selaras and ujian semester and PNG yg rendah..but Alhamdulilah, I had make it.. ikin dah laluinya.. dpt pergi further my study in UK and ada pekerjaan tetap.. mungkin ada hikmahnya Allah nak uji ikin dulu...

Can't hardly wait for 19 May.. I will be on leave until 4th June.. saje amik cuti.. nak qadhakan tidur.. biar boleh tidur sepuas2nya..boleh baca novel.. nanti nak belilah novel A+B karya HLOVATE kat Minerva Bookstore.. ikin bc review kat internet ckp novel tu mcm best.. tadi mcm nak beli, tapi dah beli cd & vcd.. so, nanti la..

~~Aishah ada ckp ttg characteristis geng  kitaorg masa kat mrsm i.e. ikin, dik un, tina semuanya ada sama charateristics: giler2 (maksudnya agk sempoi & x control ayu ssgt), tak sosial sgt ngan lelaki meaning mcm mana la nak bertegur sape ngan lelaki( tuh sb x der bf kat sekolah) compared to our classmates yg ada couple.. so, kesimpulannya, ikin ni seorang yg 'rock'.. rock apa yerk?? rock kapak yer la kot??

sometimes, ikin x bleh thn ngan org yg suka mengkritik ngn kata2 pedas..entahlah, that person always shoot me and not one else. apa salah ikin yea? frm now on, i will try to avoid that person for the rest of my life.. i wish that I only invisible in front of that person eyes.. so, that my heart won't hurt that much... usually, Ikin x tahu nak lawan ckp kalau ada org kutuk ikin.. ikin pun suka menyakat but I know the limit & make sure org tu x terasa hati ngan ikin

ikin skrg suka sgt dgr lagu kumpulan Flava: kenapa singgah kalau x masuk?? lagu tu x der kena mengena ngan ikin la.. ikin still single..

Deadline Time in Auditor's life..

I just wanna share with you guys my hectic schedule being as an auditor.. Actually, I am not fortunate as others as I always been booked for 'BIG' job until make me work like mad such as Sunway and Yeo's.. Both are public listed company... I am been expected to work more than 12 hours a day as well as during public holidays and weekend.. Guess how tiring it could be.. That's why I am looked like a Zombie now... ;)

9 January 2008
    7am: Gosh? Can it be 7am already? Feel just lying my head on the pillow. My audit team had to work about 4am yesterday to try to complete our audit work. The client that we audit has a 31 December 2007 year end and they have to announce their year end result next week since they are public listed company. Since I have only a small number of team members and a huge workload, that's why staying late is necessary. 
Furthermore, the client give us the Management Account quite late and by hook or by crook, we need to meet the deadline as we need to report to their holding company in Singapore. Thank God there will only be 2 WEEKS of madness nights, and life will be like normal again.Whoever said that auditor's life is boring? Working such crazy hours makes us quite maniac. We all have a slogan that 'DIE DIE MUST DO!' and thats why we worked hard to meet our client's expectation because the core main values in PwC are Leadership, Teamwork &  Excellence in our work. I am so grateful that I have very funny team members that can cracked jokes at 3am.. Whoever could ever done that?? Only Yeo's team members can make me smile despite of all the stressness.. Thanks to Juan Tat, Michelle, Thisha & Hazril.. =)

   

8am: I am at my client's place with all my team members. We all update to each other about our progress and the outstanding items frm clients.. There are about 6 of us in the team and actually it is quite small team compared to the amount of workload and for such a big conglomerate .. But, we have a very good compensation time and claims.. So, it has offsets everything..

   

9am: I am now discussing with my client about the outstanding items and for my analytical review about why the decrease/ decrease has been so much... and the adjustment as well.. as well as the IFRS that they need to follow.. IFRS referred as International Financial Reporting Standard..

   

1pm:It's official a lunch time now.. Guess what?? We only can afford to eat at the client's cafeteria as we need to rushed for everything.. Can you tell me what kind of food that I eat for RM2.50.. Herm, I'm not complaining but I have no choice right now..

   

2pm- 3am: I am now busy updating my working papers in other to present to my seniors and managers.. and, I need to replicate to PwC server so that my manager can review my work at her house.. Sound canggih isn't it? Its really canggih.. We have all the technical support as we also have our own Internet library for any information that we wants to deliver the best to our client...

SAT/ SUN/ AND PUBLIC HOLIDAYS

    10am-10pm: We worked like normal hours or even abnormal hours as beyond 8 hours of working hours.. No time to socialize with our family and we are likely to spend 24/7 with our team members.. So, we are tend to become closer.. We need to do the consol and of course, Client LATE adjustment.. This makes me want to scream as I need to amend my working papers and make sure it ties back to my Lead.. How I hate it!!This then has to be reviewed by our own Engagement Partner. This report will be about 50 pages long consisting of our audit findings and issues. Writing it is mentally exhausting as we have to analyse and interpret the massive data we've accumulated. We're at it till 1 a.m… again. Why am I not surprised?

23 January 2008
    Its D DAY!! yeay!! after the partner review and discussion with clients, we finally finished our audit..The day we've spent two monts working towards, the client's get the press and financial analysts in the board room to announce the year end performance.Today, fortunately, all goes smoothly and everyone is pleased. By 5.30 p.m, it's all over. The team, though exhausted, agrees to meet in Bangsar for some drinks and makan2.. belanja by our Manager.. he he he..

Beside of all this, I feel sometimes I am so exhausted and I want to resign.. Who doesn't?? After all the stress that I need to handle and the amount of money that I've earned.. After talking to my career coach, then, I realized it's not because of the money.. Its all about the invaluable experience that I've gained and I couldn't find in other place.. PwC only serve service only for competent client and big names that I can sell it on my CV later on.. Furthermore, we also have inter firm services like Learning and Education that will catered for our professional exams, and career coach that I can talked to someone when I am having problem with my work.. At first, I taught that I want to resign as I don't think I am inefficient in doing auditing work compared to my seniors.. after talking to my career coach who is also a Senior Manager, she told me that I am in a learning process.. You want to know what's the main reason that I want to stay in PwC.. She told me that I am valuable to PwC since PwC only selected the best of the best.. I might not know what I have in myself but the firm forsee that I could give the best to the company.. Imagine that I've been through all the IQ test and been selected out of 100 interviewees in UK..(By the way, my interview was in UK and I was one of the 15  successful interviewees out of 100 interviewees).. So, meaning that I am the best.. I just need to give some time to myself and try my very best.. I am feel so blessed that I have a strong family support frm my parents.. I am luckiest kid ever that my father provide the necessities such as house and car and everything although we are not that rich..we just a moderate family.. but my parents did sacrificed everything for their children.. I am so blessed that I have strong support frm my seniors, career coach and peers that always supported me for staying in the firm and will always be there when I indeed.. so, what should I complaint for despite of painful working hours and no social time to relax or to find my future partner.. my further partner must be someone that can have the knowledge in auditing LAH... so, he can helped me when I am feeling stressed with my work=) wink wink..

second last day in Sunway

tomorrow is my last day in Sunway!! yeay! after been through all the 'hell', i am so glad that its all over... i hope my next job will be better next time around.. we learn frm mistakes rite?? i hope that I am not recurring audit team member for Sunway.. nak buat Quarter review Audit pun dah half dead, ni pulak nak buat final audit nanti..

i've learn many things while I was in Sunway.. many new things about construction industry.. but, there will be time where i am a little bit blur.. but, i am still in a learning process..last few weeks, I went back quite late.. even, I sacrifice my weekend for the whole day in Sunway..the latest was at 4am..esknya terus mcm nak demam and pening2 lalat..sebab, manager pun tak balik lagi time tu.. this job really thought me to be more analytical in processing the data.. on this wed, i need  to go back to yeos to follow up certain things...then, in march, i will audit Tesco in Shah Alam.. I am quite worried for my new task.. new team members, new job, new industry.. entahlah.. need to spent another 1 month in Tesco..
besides of all the sadness, my client (Sunway) has promise to treat us... weee!! and, just now, all of my team members went out to watch movie that named Jumper.. oklah.. wkaupun agk mengarut sket.. then, we went for a dinner in Nando's.. herm, dah lama sbnrnya tak makan Nando's.. I tend to be close with my team members as I spent almost 16 hours a day with them.. and, luckily, I've got a very funny team members.
and, the good part is.. the partner and the manager are very satisfied with our work.. weee!!!! and, they want to treat us to go makan2.. i am so happy at least someone appreciate some of our hard work.. entahla, after being through ups and downs, I feel the relationship between us become much closer..
and my senior did mentioned to me that only auditor will understand auditor.. meaning, its better to get a partner that it is auditor too.. sebab sometimes, there will be time that I need to sacrifice my time to meet friends because of my work commitment.. whatever it is, ikin x nak any commitment in relationship.. coz, nanti ikin tak leh concentrate buat keje, asyik nak reply sms jer... actually, i've been seeing someone before, but I always meet the wrong guy.. I know that nobody perfect in this world, but at least, kenala ada butterfly in my stomach, jantung dup dap dup dap when seeing him, than.. i think.. i found my soulmate..(inilah pengaruh buruk novel).. kalau cam tak der perasaan jer, why should i lie to myself rite?? oklah, since i've goyt gastric now, i should take a medicine and have a rest.. till then..

hard time

working life is hard.. i had no doubt bout it!! Its now a peak period for all the auditors as we need to prepare the financial year end statement.. so, last few weeks, ikin selalu balik kul 12 am- 4 am.. then, next day, go to client's at 9am.. boleh mengalahkan working hours pak guard.. and, my eyes pun dah jadi mcm ' panda'.. sb ada eye bag.. and, everyday, makan McD.. sampai dah tahap keboringan yg infiniti.. tak tahu nak pilih apa kat McD... but, no choice la kan??

everyday, I drove alone, around 12am-4am ..takut pun ada.. so, at federal highway, ikin bawa 110-120km/j...the road was totally empty.. biasanya, at the traffic light, the car next to me, will stare at me like one kind.. maybe diorang pelik kot??

sometimes, i keep on wonder, have I made a right decision? coz, i've got an offer to become a lecturer and continue my studies in Uk.. but, then, I rejected it.. setiap kali fikir mcm tu, ikin cepat2 mengucap, 'astagfirullahalzim'..  tak baik kan, meragui petunjuk sbyg isthikarah dulu.. sb dlm petunjuk isthikarah tu, PwC is the best.. entahla.. tak tahu apa hikmahnya.. sb, I feel that I am so bad in auditing.. like everything new to me.. then my mom said, thats a working life! its totally different frm student life.. and, of course, I am not born to become an Auditor.. ikin always l blur2 and rs diri mcm tak efficient.. not like ms kat uni dulu.. tahu jer apa nak buat.. i feel really bad..

my journey through this life is totally weird.. I studied Science Stream when I was in Mrsm.. then, I jumped to different area i.e. Accounting during Alvels in Sunway and continued my studies in University of Bradford, UK.. coz, I realize, I liKe figures.. then, I become an Auditor.. although I went for Internship in KPMG, it was 99% different from what I expected.. culture shock sgt!! and, there will be time, that I feel like I am so useless in that team.. currently, I am working with wonderful and friendly team members at Yeo's.. (Yeo's is a beverage and food products like Mee Cintan).. After this job, I will be auditing Tesco in March.. Hopefully, I have a nice team members like in Yeo's.. I realize I become much closer with my team members as I see them day and night.. so, we tend to share loads of story and gossiping too while doing our work.. and, we also try to ease the burden together.. its totally about team work.. I do really appreciate them as they helped me a lot and their patience for teaching me yg very blur

Apart frm my working life, I do really hope that I can go for umrah this school holidays.. auditor's life is not really fun at all.. you must have a full responsibility and a lot of commitment.. for eg, I did sacrificed my public holidays: thaipusam, awal muharam, new year holiday for my audit work.. So, for those who wants to work as auditor, my advice is 'think twice'.. the money that you earned is not that much, but think for a longer term..i.e. the exprience that you gained will help you a lot in commercial line.. that's how I motivated myself.. I targeted to stay in audit life in 2 years.. and maximum 4 years.. so, alamatnya, I will not getting married this soon.. (cheh.. calon pun tak der)..so, pengajarannya ialah, jangan kahwin or bercinta dgn auditor.. berkawan dgn auditor pun payah.. asyik2 kena cancel plan jer sb masa keje yg  unpredictable. plus susah nak chill out makan2 masa weekend.. so, kesimpulannya ialah, ikin pun tak nak berkawin or bercinta dgn auditor.. =)

big apple

This morning I went to the office to complete some of my audit work. but, by 1pm, I need to excused myself sb my parents are waiting for me utk makan lunch... and, off we go the Curve.. just bought some doughnuts frm Big Apple..sedap sgt!! it is well recommended.. the taste are not too sweet, just nice!! I was really impressed with the restaurant strategy i.e. the customer can watch the process of making doughnut..   the queue was too long.. but, it really worth it!! it took me about 15 minutes for my turn..  most of the people bought for a dozen, well, for me, 1 dozen its enough.. just want to have a try.. but, its really worth it!! nyum nyum...

Yesterday, I went to client's office in order to finish some of my task.. penat sgt smlm.I was in client's until 3 pm.. at night, I try to sleep but I couldn't coz thinking about my outstanding work.. I need to take care of my own responsibility..so, I decided, to open my laptop, and start to do my work at 3am.. but, at 4.30am, I heard fireman's siren.. when I went to the balcony, I saw, there's a house on fire.. the smoke was quite thick.... kesiannya kat victims tu kan?? then, I decided to continue my job again..Last Friday, the manager wants to review my work.. But, when I try to switch on my laptop, the laptop screen couldn't started.. it just blank screen.. "GREAT!!!" tgh2 ni la my laptop nak bg masalah.. then, I called the office to solve my prob.. then, the computer engineer told me kena bawa balik ke ofis..( hari dah kul 9 somethin, manager nak dtg, computer bermasalah.. then, kena menempuhi federal highway around this time utk ke ofis @ kl sentral.. ).. but, whether i like it or not, kena jugak la pergi.. was there until 12 somethin, to settle about my personal stuff as well.. alang2 dpt gi ofis, kena settle kan mana2 yg patut..

everytime ikin nmpk product Yeo's at station kiosk or even at supermarket, ikin akan rasa tension.. sebab it will remind me of my keje audit yg tak siap kat Yeo's.. hari2 dapat air free kat Yeo's.. sedap sgt.. dapat try product2 baru.. hehehehhe =).. hari tu ada jawatan kosong operator pengeluaran.. sometimes, rasa mcm nak gi jer interview tu bila dah rasa stressed sgt ngan keje.. (mengarut jer kan??)

herm, apa lagi yer.. I need to give my full commitment to my job.. so, tak der masa la nak 'chill' out with my kawan2.. so, kesimpulannya, ikin hanya focus on job jer.. sian ikin.. nak balas sms org pun kekdg sampai tak terbalas.. haaa, lagi satu, ikin tammau dah cari auditor anak nelayan.. tak nak auditor!!!!!!!! sebab musabab nya biarla rahsia.. some of my senior told me that if ur bf/gf  r not frm audit firm, u will get dumped by them.. as they  couldn't understand our nature of work.. its true la.. nanti dia tanya, sapa lagi penting, keje atau dia?? then, how?? so, ada org kata, carilah auditor.. eeeiii, tak bestlaaa..  then, lagi satu, ikin  kalau boleh, tak nak org pantai timur.. not discriminate but then kan.. susahla.. jauh sgt... okie dokie, ikin nak siapkan keje ikin yg lain... akhir kata, minumla yeos.. cubalah air kelapa tin yeos.. sedap!!

2.30am in morning

it's 2.30am now but I couldn't sleep.. mmg syndrom tak boleh tidur kalau susah hati since darjah 5 lagi (as far as I could remember).. byk lagi outstanding work tak complete lagi..last few days, i am not feeling very well.. tapi, kalau boleh, ikin tak nak la bg alasan, my work tak siap sebab tak sihat.. sape nak percaya kan..

peliknya.. ingatkan keje tak lah spenat belajar.. but, beribu kali susah dr study.. pelik sungguh.. belajar susah .. kerja susah.. but, kalau tak susah, mcm mana nak success kan?? sb commitment keje lebih banyak.. nasib baik tak kahwin lagi.. kalau tak, sure mati la suami ikin.. or badan dia jadi mcm aneoksia or skeleton.. hahahaha.. but, its true.. susah eh nak cari lelaki beriman skrg ni.. but, kalau jumpa pun, tak der chemistry and sometimes kena pretend to be someone else.. ikin suka tgk sehati berdansa.. shidee and vanidah..  dulu, kalau kat uk, ikin ada masa masak kat umah, skrg, dpur pun tak berasap.. makan kat luar tak sedap.. ari tu, masa balik ipoh, ikin and mama , masak lauk kat umah (kak jue tak der).. perghhh nikmat sangat rasanya.. actually ikin masak tak sedap mana.. asalkan boleh serasi ngan tekak ikin, kira oklah..

herm, so glad that my friend got an offer letter frm pwc.. so happy for you sheau ruh.. hopefully, she will make a wise decision in choosing the company to join with.. kena ada 'chemistry' with that company bak kata my senior.. i guess so..

klah nak sambung keje balik, jelesnya tgk adik tido...

interviewer

just came back frm office.. drive sampai umah kul 10.40pm and then ajak my adik makan.. laparlaa..  tadi kerja taklh memberatkan otak sgt cuma kena banyak buat casting and call over and berkejar ke typist pool.... asyik naik turun lift... tapi, best... =)
tadi, ikin buat kerja kat tempat division ikin.. biasanya, ikin akn duduk kt level 15, and buat kerja senyap2 kat situ.. but, ni kerja team work, so kenala duduk kat tempat division ikin.. and then, ikin ternampak, ada sorang tu mcm familiar jer muka dia.. cuma, ikin x tau.. or maybe pelanduk dua serupa kot.. then, ikin tgk dia duduk kat meja dia, and ada nama dia.. guess what?? my interviewer dulu kat London.. then, masa dia pass by my working area, ikin senyum la.. and ckp, hi.. i'm ashikin.. the person that u interviewed  in london.. sb dia pernah htr email kat ikin ckp nanti klau bump to each other, do say hi.. coz maybe he didn't recognized my face..and, he is my senior manager of my division.. takutla kan kalau nanti ikin tak meet expectation dia... dia ckp, im glad that you decided to join pwc after the interview.. interview tu taklah horror mana, cuma, banyak soalan about skill .. tapi, ikin rasa is an honour that people that interview me welcoming me to PwC.. and, he did asked hows ur life so far in PwC.. and ikin jawabla.. there were ups and down.. and dia ckp..nanti masa peak period sure lagi best... well. we shall wait n  c.. okeisla.. ikin dah ngantuk.. 2moro nak smbung balik kerja...

the reason?

there should be a reason for everything happens.. eventhough baru almost 3 months bekerja, ikin dah mula rasa susahnya kerja as an auditor.. but, I kept on reminding to myself, betapa susahnya nak masuk PwC and takkan senang2 jer nak keluar kan? kan? Coz masa interview kat London, about 100 candidates apply for this job, but only 15 had been selected.. meaning that PwC had faith on me to take this responsibility...

I feel blessed with the life I have eventhough sometimes there will make me burst in tears but I will stand up.. being an auditor is not easy, mental kena kuat.. I am still new  in auditing life, still learning, and sometimes it may take longer time for me to complete a task.. mcm rasa inefficient pulak in doing job.. but, ikin selalu pujuk diri sendiri, I am still learning and maybe after 6 months, I should be efficient as my seniors.. Insyallah..

I decided to take ACCA exam.. cuma, the bad part is most of my best friends are in icaew class.. but, life goes on kan.. takperla, kelas tu weekend jer.. and, i will try to make new friends eventhough its hard for me to get close to others kalau baru kenal..tak tahu apa semua hikmah yg Allah nak bg kat ikin utk join kelas ACCA..

masa nak gi tmpt client kat bukit jelutong, ikin ternampak org buta lintas jalan.. sampai berair mata ikin tgk diorang.. kesiannya kat diorang.. rasa simpati sangat.. thats why ikin bersyukur ngan apa yg ada pada ikin skrg..wlaupun ikin tak pandai or cantik, sekurang2nya Allah bg pancaindera yg lengkap kat ikin utk bekerja..

if 2moro never comes..

its 12 am & i just came back frm my client's office..penat nya.. banyak keje x siap lagi.. stressed sgt!!.. nasib baikla my senior htr me sampai balik umah.. if not, i will be dead naik lrt in the middle of nite..my client's office is about 1 hour frm kl which near Shah Alam.. mcm mana nak jawab ngan manager nanti kalau tak siap keje? just praying that she will be busy with something else.. Ya Allah, bantulah hambamu..

mcm2 perasaan skrg.. penat, takut, risau semua ada..we cannot run frm problems kan? dah la tadi pening kepala deal ngan client.. mmg ikin x sangka ikin ni boleh sabar..  but to be an auditor, u need to be strong..

klah nak smbhyg and tidur.. just wondering if tomorrow never comes.. i do really hope..

miss him...

i am stressed with my icaew exam.. selalunya ikin bila stress time university, ikin akn peluk baby hanzalah after habis lecture kat bradford dulu.. rindu dia sangat2.. wlaupun dia suka kacau ikin, tapi, dia tetap jadi penawar jantung ikin bila ikin stress.. skrg dia kat johor.. sometimes org pelik dgn ikin, sebab kalau org lain, maybe sibuk dgn bf kot?  bila ikin boleh jumpa hanzalah?? after exam ni, ikin ada stock take kat company and period peak utk audit.. ikin akn pergi audit kilang..eager jugak nak pergi kira stock kilang wlaupun x dpt cuti raya haji..kira stock ni penting utk the balance sheet for the closing stock.. hopefully, ikin dpt stock take kat supermarket,car manufacturing or kilang2 makanan.. erm.. tgklah cuti chinese new year, ikin akn drive ke johor semata2 nak jumpa hanzalah.. skrg ni ikin dah berani drive around kl.. berani sebab terpaksa.. tomorrow i've got test, tapi dah stress, so kena rehat kejap kan? lagipun time asar tak elok study..

ikin selalu ada kelas frm 9am-4pm weekdays and weekend.. and, bila balik rumah, mmg penat giler2.. sebab bila balik, kekadang jam yg memenatkan bdn..selalu ikin masuk tidur kul 9 lebih and bgn tgh2 malam utk revise..kalau bila audit pulak, ikin x der masa nak balas sms org.. sebab ikin sibuk buat kerja audit and jumpa client.. kalau nak sms pun rasa takut, sebab ada senior dlm bilik tu.. kena hormatlah kan? then, it end up, ikin lansung terlupa balas sms tu.. and, semua igt ikin sombong.. i am not that bad.. it happens to be that i am so tired and exhausted, my brain pun dah malfunction.. takperla, mula2 kena susah dulukan, sebab setiap kejayaan kena ada pengorbanan.. tapi, ikin kerja kuat2 bukan sebab nak gaji, cuma nak dpt the valuable experience..

besides everything, ikin really hope utk jumpa jodoh by the age 27.. but not now.. coz i've got long way to go.. takut nanti dia tak fhm dgn my career.. nanti susah pulak.. wlaupun most of frens semua dah nak kahwin..semoga jodoh diorang kekal forever  n live happily ever after.. =) sometimes people asked me jealous tak tgk semua org ada bf, my answer is no.. COZ, i always meet the wrong man.. i think because i am too complicated..taklah, tak kisah mcm mana rupa dia ( sebab i am not that pretty like any actress or singer), asalkan dia ada pegangan agama, career, and my family likes him, then oklah plus understand my career.. and i just want to be myself.. and not pretending to be happy or someone else..

better stop now.. i hope that baby hanzalah knows that kakak ikin miss him very much.. ari tu call dia utk dgr voice comel dia.. dia cakap 'kakak bile nak dtg?'.. kalau ikin jumpa dia nanti, nak konyok2 dia sampai lemas and gomol pipi2 dia sampai dia geli.. miss him..rindu nak bawak dia jalan2 ngan stroller, suap dia makan, tukar lampin dia, tidurkan dia, sakat dia i.e curi puting dia although nanti dia sumbat ikin ngan puting dia.. pernah dulu mama baby hanzalah warded kat hospital kat bradford, ikin jaga dia for 2 nights.. jadi mak garang .. hehehehhe.. rindu sgt waktu tu.. but, kita tak leh ulang balik masa dulu.. have to face the future challenges..

good luck to me

countdown to my assurance exam.. another 5 hours for my assurance exam.. and., ikin rs my brain could not absorb more information and I decided to update my blog..

many people asked me why do I need to sit for exam coz I've got my degree.. well, the exam that I'm sitting is a professional exam and i am required to take it.. but, the questions were too hard!!! 10 times harder than Cambridge A-Levels exam & 5 times harder than my degree exam.. but, never say DIE before you try right??

I had been for audit fieldwork last 2 weeks..now I know why most of people does not prefer to work in audit.. coz have to go back late at night i.e. 9pm, 10pm, 11pm, 1am.. l had to go back late at 1am to finish my audit work and documentation.. kinda miss my university life.. coz in university, u r only responsible 2 urself, not involved any other people.. but in working life, any decision that u make will involve people around you.. ur manager, ur company, ur senior.. and being auditor involves to much of threat.. threat to independence which could leads to breach of codes of conduct..

I kinda miss my life in Bradford.. last week I did watched 'beraya di perantauan'.. it reminds me of Raya celebration in uk.. although tak de lemang frm bamboo but still ada 'modified lemang' frm aluminium foil which taste the same.. and of coursela bukan ikin yg buat... kaum2 ibu sana yg buat.. ikin tolong buat rendang aym and daging yg tak sedap..although pagi raya tu ikin ada kelas, tapi ikin still round satu bradford after kelas.. pagi raya pakai baju raya pergi lecture.. ikin miss baby hanzalah.. and dia pakai baju melayu same coulour as me.. sampai skrg, ikin x der opportunity nak jumpa dia kat Johor sb family dia tinggal kat Johor.. ikin selalu termimpikan dia.. sebab dia penghibur hati ikin kalau time ikin tensen..

ikin rs range kawan2 ikin dah berubah frm primary school to secondary school to college to university and finally working.. i had been exposed to diff kind of environment and different typeof people..transition of friends.. ramai yg ikin dah lost contact.. its not that ikin x nak keep in touch but my work and study life permitted me frm hanging around with my friends.. sb every sat & sun ada kelas including weekdays.. and if ikin pergi audit fieldwork, ikin sibuk kat tmpt client.. takperla, maybe this is a challenge in my life.. other people will have diff challenge kan?? doakan kejayaan ikin yea..

*credit 2 sheau ruh for letting me use her username and pword.. thanks sheau ruh!!

i'm so happy..

its been nearly a week ikin audit tnb subsidiaries..

and my work pun has been reviewed by the manager..

the mngr admitted that my workload tak sepadan ngan my position as I am a new joiner.. tapi, alhamdulilah, he was very satisfied with my work.. even, he saluted me.. =)..

tapi, yg byk tolong me ialah another experienced Associate that taught me a lot in how to deal with my work.. her name is Su Zen.. she explained the reason for each audit step that I need to take..

mula2 tu feel like blurred, rs nak nangis, like if you don't know anything..

the kind of feeling is totally diff compared when I was a vacation trainee in kpmg.. coz now,i've got lots of responsibility..

being joined with PwC makes me feel like one kind.. can't described the feeling.. sb PwC really care about their own resources i.e. employees and its not only about work.. ikin ada career coach which will look after my career development, my mentor for my professional exam, my Peer Group Learning with my manager in discussing how to deal with such situation in dealing with clients, my Learning and education officer that provides a superb training for us although sometimes I feel like overload with all the training..

alhamdulilah, Thank you to Allah I've got the job.. although its quite tiring and have to stay late until late evening, but I am happy with it.. to work with bunch of AMAZING people..

next week, I will taking my study leave for my ICAEW starting 8th Oct until mid Dec.. and, I've checked that I already been booked  frm mid Dec till April 2008 for audit fieldwork.. alamat, tak leh amik cutilah kan.. 

btw, the client called me 'adik' coz she thought that I am very young.. herm... iyeke??? bukan nampak matured ker..

my new career life..

it's been nearly 2 weeks I joined the audit firm.. skrg ni mmg tgh busy thp infinity as ikin kena gi audit one of the TNB subsidiaries kat Bangi.. my senior dah siap2 bg 5 section utk ikin complete sampai Tues.. xperla, ikin take it as a challenge..
ikin joined PwC last 3rd Sept.. for the first two days, 3 &4 sept, ikin went 'boot camp' at Pd.. tmpt tu serius lawa..nama hotel tu, Avillion Resot.. and the room kan mcm honeymoon suite.. ikin look at the rate.. lebih kurang rm 400-500 jer.. (jer!!???).. kat sana ikin kenal ngan a few new friends sb ikin ni bkn nya friendly sgt.. masa mlmnya, ikin ada bbq, and got a surprise frm them.. i.e. birthday cake.. and ikin  shared the birthday cake with another 3 'september babies'.. (iza, amanda and hariz)..

then, ari  rabunya (5 sept), ikin dah start go for orientation training week kat Wisma Sime Darby.. ari Isnin nanti,(24th Sept), my company akn berpindah ke new office at 1 Sentral, near KL Sentral.. tapi, ikin x excited sgt nak pindah sb most of the time, ikin bknnya ada kat dlm office, ikin akn selalu ada kat different places and different clients.orientation tu sampai on the 18th..

on the 7th sept, ikin ada dinner kat TGIF (Fridays ) kat OU.. herm, makanjerla kan since semuanya ditaja.. out all of dishes ikin suka makan 1 dish jer.. tak tau nama dish tu apa, tapi yg penting sedap.. tapi, then I realize, ikin x berapa suka makanan barat..then, after dinner, kitaorang gi main bowling..itupun sb firm sponsor bowling lane and sewa kasut.. best la jugak.. i never knew that ikin boleh main bowling.. siap ada strike tu!! nanti nak ajak la kwn2  gi main..

pastu. the next weeknya, on the  10th sept, kami ada dinner kat Top Hat near KLCC.. pergh.. the interior design dia very classic.. dia serve course by course.. ikin dinner ngan manager, and sector heads.. kena control.. iskh iskh iskh.. tak sukanya.. the foods are nott bad especially the dessert.. cumanya, tak mengenyangkan.. and, ikin suka the way that they present the food..

the last day of the orientation i.e. 18th sept, kami ada dinner kat KL Hilton with all the managers, partners.. erm.. dessert dia sedap la.. and next week, ikin maybe ada dinner ngan career coach ikin.. join pwc ni asyik makan jer..
and ikin ada exam briefing on the 18th sept.. mcm seram sejuk jer nak amik paper.. tapi, insyaallah, ikin akn cuba yg terbaik..

besides of all the excitement, ikin risau ngan keje audit ikin.. ikin kena buat analytical review and gi fixed asset sighting kat kilang tu..risau kalau ikin salah buat keje.. tapi, nobody perfect kan.. nanti ikin ada kelas professional exam ikin kat Sunway starting 5th oct and my exam is on the 18th.. and after that sambung balik kelas, the next exam sampai 2 dec.. maybe ikin akn amik unpaid leave.. pastu, ikin akn gi audit one of the factory kat pj frm dec sampai feb 2008.. sjk keje ni, susah sgt nak update frenster, and kalau ada masa terluang, ikin suka tidur.. qadhakan balik tido..

ikin prefer  org yg support  career ikin  or in anything I do.. I can't believe that there are still some guys out there, yg hanya fikir, women have to stay at home and jadi dapur officer..yeah, i do admit, yg perempuan kena jaga hal kebajikan keluarga, but we can't be too rigid and need to be flexible..ikin dah susah2 belajar to get a degree, then, tetiba, senang2 jer suruh ikin berhenti keje.. till next time..

di saat danial tgh exam..

ikin tgh temankan my youngest bro, danial, study utk monthly exam dia... skrg ni dia tgh practice soalan, so, ikin pun curi2 masa utk type blog ni..

actually, ikin mmg tgh enjoy hbis duduk kat rumah.. boleh makan, tidur, masaak, baca novel, tgk tv.. waaaa.. best kan hidup ikin?? jgn jeles yer.. pagi sabtu tu, kin gi rumah kenduri ari sabtu lepas, ikin gi penang, igtkan nak jumpa hanzalah.. rupa2nya hanzalah ada ngan mama dia kat Besut.. so, ikin satu family gi jumpa encik mahadi.. kami perkena nasi kandaq... pergghhh.. siap beratur sampai ke tepi jalan.. kedai tu buka kul 10.00 mlm tapi ramai yg dah ada kat kedai tu kul 9 lebih malam..kagum btul kin tgk.. kalau kin buka kedai nasi kandaq, mesti semua org lari, sebab tak sedap.. =(

the next day nya, knon2 nak jalan kat pantai.. tapi terlampau panas, and mama takut kami semua demam, so tgklah dr tebing jer.. and, kin gi kampung nelayan... iskh iskh iskh.. tak jumpa pun auditor anak nelayan..(jgn dok fikir bukan2 ya.. kin hanya main2 jer.) yg best part ialah makan.. makan udang besaq2 yg manis2 and sedap2 and harga dia quiet reasonable.. sambal belacan dia pun sedap.. cicah dgn kacang botol... ptgnya tu pulak bertolak ke ipoh...

monday morning... mama and adik gi taiping sb mama kena anjurkan kursus for her department..ikin and ayah pergilah pasar.. ikin suka tgk ikan2 kat sini, sebab mcm2 bleh msk.. kalau kat uk, mesti pening kepala nak makan ikan apa.. sebab selalunya isi dia hancur.. yg ikan paling best utk dimkn ialah ikan salmon.. so, balik dr pasar, ikin pun belajar memasak frm my maid. dia terrer memasak.. no wonder i gain weight bila balik umah.. sebab sedap sgt dia masak..

ikin ada 'bljr memandu' balik ngan adik wlaupun ikin dah dpt lesen betul last year i.e. bukan lagi P.. ikin nanti kena bawa waja ke tmpt keje... eiii, rs2nya cam nak psang siren bomba and byk sensor kat keta tu sebab bg ikin kereta tu susah nak control.. maybe, it takes time kot? rspelik jer mcm mana dulu kin berani gi jumpa kwn2 kin kat kl dulu ngan keta satria (keta pinjam frm my cousin).itupun disebabkan kak siti bg smgt suruh bw kereta..  keta satria tu best juga bw cuma entahla.. sometimes meragam..tetiba signal takder i.e. mati.. dah bawa ke workshop pun tetap berulang2.. tgklh pd rezeki, kalau Allah bg rezeki, kin nak tukar kereta yg ada safety.. i.e. ada airbag, ada abs brek.. bawa keta kat msia, boleh kena heart attack.. ngan keta zoom zaaamm zooom zaaamm, tak tgk kiri kanan, tak bagi signal, ngan motor yg bersimpang siur.. kekdang tu, yg keta perlan kat lane laju... waaaaaa.. ketensionan mmg terselah bila bw keta kat msia.. how i miss uk.. (cheh.. mulala tu.. ).. tapikan, mmg nanti, kalau kin lmbt bertemu jodoh, kin nak cr pengalaman keje kat luar negara.. spy ikin akn dpt new experience.

ikin suka spent masacuti kin kat kedai buku.. cari novel best2.. and spent masa berjam2 bc novel kat rumah.. best sgt bila baca watak2 dia..

kin minat la ngan group kahitna frm indonesia.. lebih2 lagi ngan pemain gitar dia.. nampak cute.. kin skdr menikmati ciptaan allah jer la.. jgnlah fikir apa2.. rmbut dia nmpk menarik cuma napela dia simpan rmbut panjang.. nama pemain gitar tu ialah andrie bayuadjie..lagu dia pun best.. suka sgt.. tak jemu utk mendengar.. suara diaorang best... wlaupun semua dah tua2.. hehehehhe.. ikin kan muda lagi... blum lagi 22 thn.. =p

jauh dimata dekat dihati

rindu dgn kenangan lama.. rindu dgn dik un, ina, iqah, ogy, kusul, eah (geng2 blok 2 unit 6).. perghhh.. igt lagi dok berkejar2 dlm blok.. ikin satu kelas ngan dik un.. suka cubit pipi dia yg tembam.. dia mesti kata "hang nak bg muka aku jd bulldog ker?".. and, ikin suka dgr dik un membebel bila dia x puas hati ngan budak lelaki .. favourite word dia ialah'cipan' iaitu tenuk.. and, dia bukanlah seorang yg control ayu tapi yg kin suka kawan ngan dia ialah dia ni baik.. rupa paras tu tak penting bg ikin.

ngan iqah pulak, kin jadi rpt sebab dia suka dtg kat katil ikin ms ikin mula2 sampai kat mrsm and sembang2.. kngn yg tak leh lupakan ialah bila kin jerit sb terkejut ada cicak dlm locker dia and iqah jadi penyelamat..ikin suka kwn ngan iqah ni sebab dia ni pandai in survival skill.. especially bila dia guna gunting buka durian.. salute giler kat dia.. habis ikin ngan dia dok toreh kulit durian ngan gunting sb pisau kami hilang.. and, disebalikkebrutalan iqah,terselah sifat baik dia.. dia jaga ikin masa demam and siap pujuk ikin jgn nangis ngan air milo bila ikin rs homesick especially lepas mama and ayah balik..

ina pulak my roomate.. selalu kena gi debate and dia selalu sharekan rahsia dia ngan ikin sampaikan kawan2 dia tak tahu.. bila ina tak der, terpaksalah si iqah temankan ikin..kekadang tu sampai tarik tilam and tidur ramai2 kat bawah.. yg paling best bila mak ina dtg.. ikin 'pow' makanan dia.. ina kelas lain but selalunya bila time dinner, kin akn mkn selalu ngan dia..

ogy pulak mmg ada sifat caringkan kawan like my mama, and mulut dia mmg bising.. dia ni mmg sabar sungguh layan kerenah ikin, iqah and dik un.. ada ke ikin ngan iqah tak nak basuh tgn sebab malas nak bangkit.. terpaksalah dia suapkan kami berdua.. sekali tgk tu mcm emak kepada burung laaa.. dia ni mmg byk pminat.. kalau kin pulak, mmg x der peminat... confirm 150%.. kin rs kalau ada org minat kin mesti mata dia rabun tahap maksimum..

masa ting 5, ikin kena tukar ke blok 5.. so, kin duduk ngan kawan2 baru.. my roomate nama dia sue.. dia ni pendiam.. but suka senyum.. herm, apa2pun kin tak pernah ada konflik ngan dia.. senang berkawan ngan dia..

ikin rpt ngan nazihah and makni.. biasanya, pagi jumaat nazihah kejutkan ikin gi solat subuh sama2 kat masjid and baca Al Quran sama2 bila free.. pastu, kitaorang gi beli nasi lemak sama2 and makan aiskem cendol pagi2 buta.. lepas kena kemas bilik utk inspection, ikin akn ke blok akademik ngan dia.. although kelas kami lain, tapi kami mmg rpt.. nazihah pun suka kacau ikin kat katil.. ada sekali tu, sampai dia tertidur sebelah ikin sebab penat bersembang ngan ikin.. kami berdua suka bersaing bila bgn subuh.. selalunya, bila dia terjaga awal, dia kejut ikin sampai tarik2 tgn ikin dr katil.. and dia akn tunggu ikin utk jln2 sama2 ke blok akademik sama2 wlaupun dia dah siap awal.. perangai dia pun mcm kin.. tu sebab kin satu kepala ngan dia..

makni pulak ahli badan wakil pelajar.. ikin suka tgk sikap lemah lembut makni, dia sentiasa kemas and bergaya.. wish i could be like her.. tapi, me ni hampeh.. suka kacau makni sebab suka dgr mulut dia bising.. dia ni ada sikap emak laa... nampak badan jer kecik tapi hantu makan.. same as me.. ms kin kat uk, bila x der kelas or coursework nak buat, adalah spent berjam2 chatting ngan dia through ym.. sebab time difference 2 jam jer..

azua pulak my deskmate wlaupun dia tak tinggal sekali ngan ikin.. dia ni org perak and loghat dia pekat giler.. suka dgr dia ckp 'ate? ngapenye??' dia ni mudah berkawan ngan semua org sebab dia ni peramah.. not like me, yg susah nak rpt ngan semua org.. bukanlah memilih, tapi kin susah nak masuk ngan org yg tak satu kepala ngan ikin.. ikin selalu balik sekali ngan dia. dia duduk kat lambor kiri, so, bila ayah ikin amik ikin pulang bermalam, azua and tina selalunya jadi peneman ikin.. igt lagi bila ikin demam teruk, azua sanggup dtg jenguk ikin kat blok ikin.. and, kami sama2 duduk bhgn paling depan sekali dlm kelas. azua ni mmg petah berckp, ikin pulak, hanya ckp bila ikin rs comfortable ngan sesorang.. kalau ikin rs tak selesa, ikin suka diam jer..

conclusionnya, kin mudah berkawan dgn org yg satu kepala ngan ikin.. kalau org x kenal ikin mungkin ckp kin ni sombong sb akn jadi pendiam.. susah nak dpt kawan yg sanggup susah payah ngan kita kan? i really value the true meaning of friendship.. tapi, skrg, susah nak contact ngan semua org wlaupun ada internet and telefon, semuanya tak sama.. tapi yg penting jauh dimata, dekat dihati..

graduation

Alhamdulilah, at last.. I've graduated.. the kind of excitement was different compared masa graduation masa mrsm dulu.. sebab time tu, spm pun x lepas lagi.. and, there is a long way to go!!! sebab msa tu tgk pd pointer.. but, apa yg ada pada pointer.. sebab bukannya result spm betul pun.. just based on ur exam kat sekolah bukannya by the lembaga peperiksaan..I found that university life quite challenging especially duduk kat rantau org.. mana nak memasak, nak gi lecture, nak kejar bus, .. and, bila time peak period, i.e. time tu mmg mkn minum x terjaga, bygkanlah, celik mata tgk buku and coursework, balik frm group discussion kul 11-12 am, alhamdulilah, ada ramai yg sudi htr lauk utk ikin.. thanks to kak ina and aunty shikin.. and, masa ikin sakit, ramai yg carekan ikin.. htr mknan..

kat uk dulu, kalau mengidam nak makan apa2, kenalah usaha sendiri masak kek, roti and pastry.. cari resepi kat internet and ajak kak ina wat sekali.. and, perkakas dapur tu beli kat carboot.. mmg best jugak bila memasak ni.. tapi, nanti mesti penat..masa kak wan, kak siti and aunty fauziah ada dulu, diorangla rajin melayan ikin.. wat kuih lepat pisang, bingkang ubi,kuih kasui etc.. rs mcm kat msia pulak

and, the best experience that I ever had is when ikin kena jaga baby hanzalah when kak ina was admitted in the hospital..baby hanzalah baru umur 1 thn lebih.. time tu, ikin mmg takut jugak.. tapi, kuatkan smgt..masa kecik2 dulu adalah jugak jaga my youngest adik and baby2 cousin kat kampung, tapi setakat tolong sikit2 jer.. i.e. mandikan baby, suapkan baby, main dgn baby.. sakat baby pun iye jugak!! tapi, semuanya ada mama diorang sendiri.. bila diorang nangis, ikin try pujuk and bila makin kuat nangis nya, ikin pass je kat org lain..

ikin mmg cepat menggelabah.. bila dia nangis, ikin tanya, hanzalah nak susu ker, pastu ikin check diapers dia..mmg spjg tu, ikin x nyakat dia cam amik puting dia.. kalau tak, ikin jugak yg merana.. dahlah dia tak nak ngan faiz.. so, ikin kena jaga dia sorang2.. mmg x leh nak wat keje apa. asyik kena melayan dia.. nasib baik kak yani and aunty shikin htrkan ikin lauk..nak masak kat dapur, dia tolong teraburkan dapur ikin, pulas segala switch and plug, ikin rs dia ni nak jadi engineer laaa.. pastu, nak tidurkan dia, payah jugak.. ikin padamkan lampu supaya gelap although ikin sbnrnya takut nak tidur dlm gelap, baby hanzalah boleh siap nak bersembang and main2 ngan ikin.. waaaaaa!! ikin pun naikla tanduk kat kepala.. buat suara garang.. sorrylah yer sayang!! kakak terpaksa.. ckp dlm hati.. pastu, mlm2 kul 3 pagi, dia merengek nak susu and pastu nak 'DUMMY' dia.. dummy tu nama puting dia.. haaaaa.. meraba2 la ikin kat bantal tgh2 gelap tu.. dia pulak dah nak wat suara soprano diaa.. hanzalah hanzalah.. pastu, dia pandai bodek.. bila nak something, dia akan kiss ikin either kat pipi or bibir..kin rs budak2 ada insticnt yg kuat.. cthnya: lg 2 bulan ikin nak balik msia, ikin tgk perangai hanzalah makin manja ngan ikin.. biasanya kalau tidurkan dia, ikin just dodoi and tepuk2 dia (sometimes kin tertidur ngan hanzalah).. tapi, sejak 2 menjak ni, hanzalah nak tidur meriba and ikin kena pujuk tidur kat dada ikin.. rindu nak kiss pipi gebu diaaa...rindu nak dia nari terkedek2 bila dgr lagu.. comel sungguh.. dahla dia suka ajuk apa yg ikin ckp.. perangai dia lebih kurang cam ikin jugak.. dia suka nyakat ikin jugak., sampai skrg ikin asyik2 termimpi dia..mungkin ikin rindu sgt kat dia kot?

ikin rs pengalaman ikin kat uk amat berharga and the education system kat uk are totally different compared to Malaysia.. kat sana, lecturer kat sana open minded and willing to hear our opinion.. bila ikin jwb kat exam, sometimes tu, ikin based on the current news which tak de publish dlm buku lagi, and the lecturer willing to accept my evidence and research..

and, kawan2 jugak memainkan peranan.. kat school of management, ada 2 org melayu.. so, ikin tend to mix around with people.. kawan2 baik ikin mostly come frm Africa region.. diorang mmg value the true meaning of friendship, sanggup susah senang ngan kita tanpa rs iri hati.. plus, they are fully committed in their studies.. bygkanlah, i've spent almost 24 hours, 7 day a week with them including saturday and sunday.. so, ikin mmg dah masak ngan perangai diorang.. plus, most kawan2 ikin yg study group ngan ikin tak bercinta, so, senangla wat keje and jumpa bila2 masa.. sebab ada kwn ikin bljr kat sini bgtau kat ikin, bila bljr kat msia, kita akn tend ikut trend kat sini yg dah 'bercop'.. sb dia kata, kita akn 'terasa' kita tak berpunya.. iyeker?? entahla.. ikin mmg x der perasaan pun..

3 sept ni ikin kena lapor diri kat PwC.. takutnyaa..takut nak drive kat kl yg drivers dia ntah apa2..and, lagi 1, sebab ikin x tau culture company tu mcm mana.. dulu ikin pernah wat internship kat kpmg.. and kerja ikin byk kena jg relationship ngan client.. byk org x fhm mcm mana sbnrnya kerja ikin.. and, jumpa dgn client yg mcm2 perangai.. and, balik umah paling awal kul 9 mlm.. biasanya after smbyg maghrib.. ikin rs ikin ni boleh jd workaholic.. sebab bila buat keja kat uni, sometimes, boleh terlajak sampai kul 10 mlm sebab betul2 concentrate buat kerja, and sometimes ikin matikan mobile phone sebab tak nak org disturb.. so, ikin rs, psgn yg sesuai ngan ikin ialah auditor.. auditor anak nelayan.. leh ikin gi tgkp ikan waktu cuti.. mandi laut.. hehehhehe ..

My interviews experience

Cam x caya jer ikin jumpa kawan2 lama yg terpisah almost 10 years kat Friendster!! Last time ikin jumpa diorang sebelum ikin kena diagnosed cancer when I was in Standard 6... After that, mmg x jumpa lagi ngan diorang.. One of them htr friendster message kat Ikin cakap,"ni la Shikin yg selalu kena disakat kat kelas".. hehehhehe =) and  ada yg cakap " sakit2 kanser pun boleh belajar kat uk".. Alhamdulilah, sakit lama tu tak der lagi.. pernah la sekali sakit dada masa batuk kuat last year, but itu mmg time winter..

Ayah cakap my Paediatrician kat  Hospital Besar Ipoh, Dr Tharam ajak ikin pergi Cancerlink Foundation Camp kat Lumut.. tapi, ikin kena tunggu kat sini sampai result ikin keluar and for my graduation day.. Pernah last 2 years ikin saje visit paediatrics ward kat Ipoh.. My doctor cakap ikin my height still the same masa ikin sakit kanser.. betul pun.. and, Alhamdulilah, ikin dah dapat  and accept job offer as Associate @ Auditor @ Chartered Accountant Trainee kat PricewaterhouseCoopers (PwC), KL..kalau nak tahu macam mana kerja Auditor boleh pergi kat website ni... PWC

Besides PwC, ikin dapat offer letter from Ernst and Young, Delloite, CIMB and Scholarship for Master and PhD.. My previous workplace, KPMG, tak offer me any place pun.. Maybe KPMG Ipoh kot? Nampak cam senang kan dapat byk job offer, tapi sebenarnya banyak benda yg ikin kena sacrifice.. I spent several hours editing my CV to make it looks perfect.. Every time I went back for my summer holiday, I had to spent 2 months training in Audit Firm.. I had to sacrifice my time for not to travel around the Europe.. Feel quite disappointed as I could not travel like my other friends.. however, I am not regret after following my parents advices as they know what the best for their child.. I am so lucky to have them.. =) Actually the interview was been organised in London by all the Malaysia companies.. herm, its quite competitive actually.. You want to know what's the 'Aura' when entering into the interview place?? Ok.. Let me describe to you..Most of the people wear nice outfit, blazer and nice make-up on their face.. For me, just a little bit lipstick and some compact powder.. I don't know how to make-up like other girls (Budak kampungla katakan..patutla tak der orang berkenan .. Iklan kejap ) but, I've tried to look presentable..and, they looked so confident and seems to be well prepared.. when I looked at myself at the mirror in the toilet, it seems that I am so inferior.. But, I keep on reminding myself, "Ikin, you can do it!! Remember  Mama's and Ayah's hope to work in a multinational company.. So, I went for the first Psychometric Testing with PwC.. And I met Salika Suksuwan (The HR Manager ) and her assistant, Janice.. They were nice and friendly.. luckily, I feel the room is cozy.. So I did the first test, essay question.. I think I screw up the essay.. I guess.. Dalam hati, apake benda la punya soalan.. I glanced people around me, jawab dgn penuh confident.. But, I still remember what my bestfriend told me before, Maybe their answer its not as good as mine.. then, it continued with Verbal Testing and Numerical Testing.. After that, it has been followed by the interview session.. My interviewer is a seconder in London.. Seconder means like a person who are from Malaysia office and been transferred to here for a while..His name is Mr Azlan.. He had a big body and make me feel scared.. and, he did asked me to leaned back to the sofa as I am so nervous and sitting in 90 degrees.. Silly me!! And, most of the interview question is about my skills and my experience with KPMG.. One of the question is about my experience of dealing with the clients.. I explained to him I did handle the situation with a polite and tactical approach.. Jadi Auditor ni kena banyak2 bersabar.. and have to become 'lemah-lembut' eventhough sebenarnya rasa cam nak ketuk2 jer kepala client yg sometimes x fhm bahasa.. nak kena cakap Bahasa Urdu kot baru faham???and, after 1 hour interview with him, Salika told me that she will informed me by tonight if I am successful.. I don't want to put much hope as it will make feel cry if I don't get the job.. and, after 10 minutes interview with PwC, I went for another interview with Delloitte.. Most of the questions being asked were almost the same as PwC's.. I feel much confident and less nervous .. and, I got the job on the spot.. Alhamdulilah!! And, I tried to smile during the interview eventhough  sometimes I find it hard to smile at the interviewer.. My career adviser always remind me don't forget to smile.. She said 'Show ur lovely smile to the interviewer.. " and, I did switched off my mobile at night as I was pretty sure that Salika won't phone me for the 'good news'.. and, during that night, I went to London Eye, Westminster to take some pics.. Its quite chill that time although its Spring..

The next day, I went to the career fair.. and, I've got an instinct that I've got the job with PwC..Coz I saw Mr Azlan at the career fair and he did say 'Hi!' to me.. So, I went to their booth and asked whether I am one of the successful applicant.. and, Janice asked me to wait for a while and checked my name whether are they in the list.. She congratulate me and show me an envelope of PwC with my name "NOR ASHIKIN ISA " on it... Well done Ashikin!! You've got the job!!" I was so speechless and never thought that my dream to join PwC will be come true.. Coz to get working in PwC is very competitive and they selected only the 'cream' one.. Janice explained some of the terms of conditions.. She told me that I need to get at least Second Upper Class Degree for my degree to do my Chartered in ICAEW.. If not, she will offer me to do ACCA.. Syukur sgt time tu!! Feels like on the top of the world!!the kind of excitement that I got the offer letter is different when Delloite give me an offer VERBALLY. So thankful for those yg pray for my success and giving me encouragement : My mama, ayah, adik2, kak ina, kak yani, and my dear friends.. After I got the offer letter, I was very hungry and ajak adik faiz  makan kat sandwich kat Subway.. then, I went back again to hear for a talk frm PwC..

Although I got a job offer from PwC, I still went for other interviews.. I've got an interview with Ernst and Young.. The office is near to the London Bridge.. The building is so elegant, and I feel like entering to a corporate world.. I did when at the reception desk to let them know that I am at here.. Sitting on the chair and looking at the auditors with 'classy look' eventhough I know the job is terrible and horrible makes me feel wonder will i look like them in 5 years time.. =) and, Mr Abdul Rauf (Ernst and Young partner aka their big bos) come and greet me.. I tried to smile at him and he did asked several questions about my studies and none about my skills..He asked me, did I get any offer frm other firm?? I lied to him and say 'NO'.. padahal tak taula my face expression cam mana.. and, the most 'difficult' question that I find was when he asked me "if all the Big Four firm give me an employment offer letter which one will you choose? In the based of what? " i whispered to myself, soalan macam ni pun boleh tanya ker????!!! takkan nak ckap pasal salary and bonus kot??? and, on the spot, I told him that I will compare and contrast the pros and cons of each audit firm and will choose based on the training they provide to me.. Smart answer!!! I told to myself.. He smiles at me and agree with my answer.. and he did asked me, " why do you choose Ernst and Young?? Not PwC? Not KPMG? Not Delloite? " Pulak dah!! I forgot all the company values that I memorised.. I smiled at him... and told him, I want to have a different experience than KPMG.. I also did mentioned that I've got some knowledge about the working style frm my uncle.. and, he did asked my uncle's name.. and, it happens to be that my uncle is his bestfriend.. OH NO!!!! and, masa interview tu, ikin tetiba tersedak sampai berair2 air mata.. Mr Abdul Rauf tu terus tuangkan air suruh ikin minum.. time tu mmg nak leh nak cover malu.. =p malunya ikin!! Mr Abdul Rauf asked me do  i know the history of Ernst and Young about Hanafiah, Raslan and Mohammad.. Ikin dgn ikhlas hatinya cakap ikin mmg tak tahu.. Memang tak tahu pun!! Tak sempat nak buat revision about the history about the company.. and,actually Mr Abdul Rauf told me and before he sent me back to the lounge, he told me that I got the job but he could not promise me that I will get the ICAEW training but pretty sure that I will get the ACCA training..

In the afternoon, I went to the Malaysia Hall and attended another interview.. With CIMB.. The person that waiting before me told that he had waited for about 1 hour.. herm, so sembang punya sembang ngan mamat tu, dia kata he is frm Sheffield.. and, I asked him to send my salam to my bestfriend masa Alevels dulu.. Tak caya pulak dia kata oooo. that girl.. my girlfriend sebenarnya.. What a small world!!! dia kena interview about 30-40 minutes while me kena about 10 minutes jer.. The interviewer did asked about my father's and mother's occupation.. and, I asked me why don't I work with my father? My answer was 'My father had rejected my CV.. He don't want to take me as his employee'..the person laugh like mad sampai berair2 mata.. I did not make any funny jokes I supposed so.. but, that is the fact and reality.. She just smile and did explained to me the training contract and did informed me if I am successful she will inform me soon...

then, I went for another interview with Kementerian Pengajian Tinggi.. Tak caya jer interview tu dlm bahasa melayu.. and, when I entered to the room, they were discussing about another person before me and rejected him.. eiii takutnya!!! and, the interview went very well!! some of the question.. " Bradford kat mana? apa ranking University of Bradford??" and, final question, kalau ikin jadi lecturer, ikin nak minta posting kat mana?? hah!!!??? soalan cam ni pun ada?? ikin dok fikir.. oh, ikin ada kawan kat UKM.. so ikin cakap kat UKM.. then, next nyer, ikin ckp UM sebab nad kat sana.. and the third choice is at UUM, sebab dulu Che wan belajar kat situ.. dia cakap ikin ni mmg dok bantai jer mana nama2 university yg ikin tau.. dia ckp ikin bukannya pilih based on ranking.. ikin jwbla balik, tugas as a lecturer semuanya sama jer walaupun sebagus mana university tu.. Those panel of interviewer mcm terdiam jer bila ikin cakap cam tu.. and, they straight away write an offer letter to me about my scholarship to do my phd and master..

the next day, on Tuesday morning, i've got an interview with Securities Commission.. The interview did not when quite well as I slept at 2am and my brain did not fully function.. and, I hate the inteviewer as well!! she likes to condemn my answer and ada jer tak kena.. malasnya ikin nak layan.. She is very odd and different from my other interviewers that I had before.. and, time tu ikin mmg dah geram sgt, sebab ckp sikit, kena condemn.. dalam hati, biarlah tak dapat keje kat sini..

the last interview, is the worst.. which is from my previous workplace, KPMG.. tak organized lansung.. sebabnya.. the psychometric testing does not very organized.. every people start at different time and finish at different time.. and, it was quite disturbing when people keep on in and out frm the room.. and, it happens to be the person of in charge in conducting the exam is one of the previous auditor in the department that i previously worked.. she did shared some of her experience with me.. in audit Petronas and etc.. and, I found the interview is quite dull and not exciting as PwC and Ernst and Young.. TAK TAULA MENGAPA.. however, last few days I received an email from my previous bos in KPMG Ipoh asking me whether I am still interested to join them??

Many people asked me why pilih PwC not other firm or jadi lecturer?? My answer is because my petunjuk isthikarah.. At first, ikin pun in dilemma and keliru which one to choose.. but, the morning after the i made my isthikarah, ikin dpt phone call frm mama suruh pilih PwC.. so, ini mungkin petunjuknya.. and, until now, I received a letter frm Ernst and Young that will revised my starting salary which maybe higher than what PwC offer to me.. and CIMB offers me many benefits as their employers and offer much higher salary than PwC but I still stick to my decision.. Insyaallah, inilah yg terbaik utk ikin.. Ikin takkan menyesal sebab ikut cakap mama.. sebab Insyallah ada baiknya ikut ckp ibu.. syurga anak kat bawah tapak kaki ibu.. lainla kalau dah bersuami.. barulah syurga kat tapak kaki suami..Ikin hope yg ikin dpt result yg cemerlang at least second upper class degree.. Kalau dpt first class, Ikin akn bersyukur sgt.. tapi, Insyaallah, ikin akn selalu ingat yg semua kejayaan ikin adalah semuanya milik Allah, and Dia boleh tarik bila2 masa sahaja..

tour europe

Dah lama tak tulis blog.. ikin kat management school and nak release tensen kejap..herm, ada 2 lagi paper.. and Insyallah July ni ikin grad.. yeay!!! pastu, nanti nak balik Msia.. tapi, yg ikin regretnya, ikin tak sempat nak tour Europe mcm org lain.. mungkin nanti after ikin dah keje kot?? or kahwin dgn Datuk XYZ??!! hehheheh =p naaa, just kidding..

Sbrnrnya last yr, ayah ada bagi ikin tour Europe cuma after ikin weighted out the advantages and disadvantages of tour Europe tu, terpaksalah ikin cancel plan nak ikut kak wan and kak siti jalan2 kat Paris, Switzerland etc.. sebabnya, ikin risau nanti badan ikin letih kat kelas nanti.. cam kak siti and kak wan tu takperla, diorang dah habis university.. and, ayah ada lagi tawarkan tawaran gi Europe after ikin habis exam ni.. and again, ikin fikir balik, ada byk benda lain yg boleh dibuat dgn duit tu.. takkanla ayah penat2 cari duit, ikin pulak yg bersuka ria dgn duit tu.. mcm sstgh org dpt duit scholarship or keje part time.. so, tak kisah sangat la kan? takperla, kalau ada rezeki, ikin akn pergi tour europe jugak.. walaupun tua bangka sekalipun.. hehhehehe =p

erm, i really do hope that I will get a good result for my degree.. mmg ikin hope nak dpt 1st class, tapi, semuanya kat tgn Allah.. ikin dah cuba sedaya upaya ikin..kalau dapat 2nd upper pun, ok jugak kan? at least skrg, ikin tak payah pening cari keje dah.. satu masalah dah selesai.. seriknya nak isi application form keje.. banyak sangat pages yg nak kena fill.. sampaikan ikin naik pening and rs dah tak larat nak isi borang keje.. pulak tu, time ikin interview pulak semuanya dekat2.. selang 10 minit and I have to go to the next company interview.. sampaikan satu tahap, ikin naik confuse yg sbnrnya ikin kat company mama.. and, during that time, ikin catched flu and cold kat London..running nose and suara kalahkan penyanyi rock yg menjerit la pulak i.e. tak de suara.. and,ikin mmg ada impian nak keje kat PricewaterhouseCoopers masa ikin 1st yr dulu.. rasa syukur sgt dgn nikmat Allah, yg ikin dpt keje offer letter kerja kat 3 BIG 4 Audit firm.. PWC, EY and Delloitte..sampai skrg ikin tak percaya yg actually I've got the job.. sebab masa interview tu, ada 2 soalan yg ikin jawab salah.. and, time tu rasa nak katuk2 jer kepala ni..and, exam psychometric testing tu berlalu dgn hampeh.. ikin tak tau apa yg ikin jwb and siap tak sempat jawab lagi tu.. tapi, semuanya ditgn Allah..  cuma, ikin kena dpt at least 2nd upper degree jer utk keje kat pwc.. ingat lagi, ikin selalu menangis sebab bila fikir, kenapala ikin bljr kat uk? rasa seolah2 ikin dah buat wrong decision.. pressure sgt bila buat coursework kat sini in meeting their standard of a good quality coursework.. tu sebab kawan ikin cakap ikin ni 'fussy' in siapkan kerja group coursework.. and, my friends also told me that I am a good researcher, bab2 cari journal ni, or any contemporary issues of business environment.. Alhamdulilah, mungkin Allah dah anugerahkan kat ikin secara semulajadi, and ikin jugak selalu share ngan kawan2 ikin bila diorang tanya mcm mana ikin boleh dpt maklumat tu.. tak der rugi apa2la kalau kita share maklumat kan? nanti kalau kita susah, mesti ada org lain tolong kita kan?? =) cuma, bila ikin tgh pening dgn group coursework, mula2lah ikin start merepek.. suruh kawan ikin 'shoot' ikin skrglah.. suruh diorang buried my body kat graveyard laaa.. kawan2 ikin semuanya tergelak bila ikin dah start merepek.. but, it is a good opportunity to work with people in different culture, and actually, I've learnt something kat sini..kalau ikin rasa ikin have a strong evidence to back up my point, ikin akn argue habis2an..mmg cara org belajar kat sini mcm tu and ikin dah mula terikut..

ari tu ikin ada beli teddy bear utk hanzalah.. hanzalah yg tunjukkan which teddy bear that he wants.. and, dia bawak teddy bear tu tidur ngan dia.. ikin suka usik dia, buat2 teddy bear tu balik umah ikin.. mengamuk sakan dia.. herm, mama hanzalah kata, almost every nite dia panggil nama 'qhakak'.. hehehehhe =) patutlah ikin tersedak2 and bulu mata asek masuk mata jer.. rupenya ada org sebut nama and rindu..

 

 

rasa2nya kan, ada tak istilah kawan baik antara lelaki and perempuan?? entahlah, ikin pun confuse sometimes.. ni mcm satu tajuk lagu jer.. teman tapi mesra.. ikin seronok kalau berkawan utk dtgkan kebaikan, tapi, at the same time, I will refrain myself to fall in love..tak jeles pun tgk kawan2 ikin yg mostly single not available.. in fact, ikin turut share their happiness.. and doakan semoga diorang dipanjangkan jodoh.. apapun, International Finance and Business Society paper yg lagi penting.. Come on ikin.. YOU CAN DO IT!!!

okeis, i need to pack up my stuff and catch a bus.. nanti nak study for my international finance pulak.. go go chaiyok ikin!!! another 2 papers, and I'm done!! By the way, ikin tak puas hati sungguh tgk muka tembam ikin kat prospectus..  diorang sabotaj ikin ker?? eleh, ikin rs ikin byk time winter, itu yg tembamnya.. this prospectus is for the year of 2008.. kalau nak prospectus ni, bolehla dapat kat Uk education fair nanti kat University of Bradford booth.. hehheheh.. macam tgh buat marketing la pulak for my uni.. apapun, i am very proud  with my university.. my school of management is ranked 2nd in UK and 8th in Europe according to Financial Times.. further info, bolehla visit kat

http://www.brad.ac.uk/acad/management/external/pdf/rankingeurobusinessschools2006.pdf

kalau nak tgk brochure tu, bolehla pergi kat

http://www.brad.ac.uk/acad/management/external/brochures/bradfordundergraduatebrochure.pdf

Skrg ni tgh asek2 batuk and selsema jer.. bila nak exam, sure sakit.. pressure sgt kot?oklah, till then, byeeeee

why and why?

hari ni tarikh tutup for my employment offer letter for ernst and Young (EY), CIMB and scholarship for my master and phd.. and, ikin dah mengarang letter of decline tapi tak send lagi.. entahlah, this past few days rs cam tak de smgt nak buat keje jer.. tadi baru jer submit 2 courseworks.. rasa mcm regret jer amik one of the module tu.. sebab, ikin x fhm sgt ttg theory dia.. maybe, kalau ikin cuba baca and buat research ttg that topic, i could appreciate the module  more than before.. the problem is, i have another  group coursework to do.. x sukeeeenyeeeee.. tapi, bila kerja kumpulan ni, makes me appreciate more to analyse the people's thinking.. and, sometimes tu, ikin pernah jumpa org yg mmg tak nak terima pdpt org lain.. mmg mula2 tu ikin bersabar.. lama2 tu, rasa cam dah tak larat..

sometimeskan, i feel, yg ramai org tak appreciate ikin when ikin tolong dia.. and, buat ikin rs sedih.. bygkanlah, ikin ni jenis suka share new information dgn org yg berkaitan dgn studies or benda2 yg boleh bg advantange.. eventhough, ikin tau ada risknya.. sebab mungkin because of the information ikin share, akn buat ikin in a competitive situation.. tapi, yg sedihnya, org tu tak thankful dan tak appreciate ikin.. nak tegur ikin pun tak.. sebaik mana kita buat kat org, tak semua org akn buat baik kat kita.. sebab masa ikin kat mrsm dulu, cikgu selalu ckp, kita kena kongsi segala ilmu yg kita ada dgn org lain, and Allah akn limpahkan rezeki kat kita nanti as the reward.. yup, ikin agree with that statement.. eventhough org tu tak thankful kat ikin, tak appreciate ikin as a friend, and not willing to share anything with me tapi alhamdulilah, Allah bg ikin rezeki yg lain.. apa  salah ikin yer? kenapa org tu mesti rs envy and iri hati.. susahkan kalau semua manusia cam ni.. time susah baru nak dtg jumpa ikin.. but, ikin will always try my very best to help eventhough dlm hati tu pelik..biarla, dia nak ckp ikin ni apa kat best friends dia.. for me, don't judge anyone from the gossip that you hear.. boleh jadi salah..mcm la ikin ni hebat sgt yg dia nak envy.. belajar takat moderate level jer, tak lebih and tak kurang.. biasa2 jer.. tapi, jgnlah bgtau org lain benda2 yg tak betul ttg ikin.. it makes me feel sad.. rs nak nangis..salah ker kalau dia share any info and good news with me.. and, ikin rs mcm ikin ni terhegeh2 jer kawan ngan dia..  kenapa org sanggup tikam dr belakang eventhough kita yg selalu dgn dia masa susah and senang.. bila dah senang, tak reti nak appreciate the true meaning of friendship.. and since that, ikin rs ikin lebih berhati2 bila buat kawan.. and, ikin tend utk jadi biasa and don't want to show the real characteristics of me.. betullah cakap mama.. kat dunia ni, susah nak jumpa org yg baik2..

takperlah, mudah2an ada hikmahnya yg Allah nak bg.. doa2kanla ikin jumpa dgn org yg baik2 time ikin kerja nanti.. yg boleh motivate ikin buat kerja mcm kawan2 ikin kat sini as well as the friend that willing to be with you dlm masa susah dan senang.. kenapala ikin jumpa diorang ms ikin 2nd yr and final yr.. kalau jumpa diorang awl2 kan best? maybe time tu ikin ni pemalu sikit.. gonna miss my study group very much..

surprise surprise

I was quite surprised when I received a special delivery mail this morning.. It's a employment offer letter from CIMB .. CIMB stands for Commerce International Merchant Bankers Berhad.. Keje as a banker.. the salary that their offered to me is quite competitive and slightly more than what did the pricewaterhousecoopers and Ernst and Young offered to me.. padahal time interview tu, I am not very focussed.. sebab CIMB is my fifth interview after MISC,  PwC, EY and Delloitte.. I am so tired during that time and rasa mcm tak der tenaga jer nak menjawab.. I've meet the interviewer before the interview when I was waiting for my turn for PWC's interview.. and, time tu, tak terfikir pun nak pergi CIMB interview.. but, the person gave her card to me and asked me to think about it.. Since Ikin dah pasrah mula2 masa interview PwC, ikin pun rs ikin kena start applying to other companies as well.. then, masa interview CIMB, I am not fully prepared as I was in PWC's interview.. And,masa time tu, I've lost my voice and I have a bad running nose..Some of the ques that she asked me, "how many siblings that I have?" and " What is my father's working and what kind of business?".. and, "why don't you just work with your father?".. ikin pun jawabla, "coz my father have rejected my employment application".. guess what? org tu gelak sakan kat ikin.. lama jugak la.. adalah dekat 6 harakat.. seriesly, ikin time tu fikir, "ikin tgh buat joke ker? ikin rs ikin jawab dgn benda yg betul.. "tak sampai 10 minit, the interview ended.. dlm hati ikin, sure tak dptnya keje tu.. sebab org sebelum ikin kena interview about 40 min.. tak sangka pulak dia bg offer letter tu?

but, i am still with my decision nak keje kat PwC.. BUT, ada masalah sket.. coz, of my previous medical history of cancer.. herm, takperla. kalau diorang x nak bg ikin keje psl my previous sakit, ikin rs its totally unfair to my life.. if ikin still ada sakit tu, sure doktor x bg ikin further study kat sini and masa boarding school dulu.. my sakit is my past.. ikin x suka org kaitkan kebolehan ikin dgn sakit ikin.. sebab masa ikin sekolah dulu, some of teachers don't allowed me to do sama macam as other student buat.. tak fair lah kan? dalam hati tu, nak main jugak mcm org biasa, tapi, maybe teachers takut complication, so, tak bglah ikin buat mcm2..

ikin ari tu ada tgk movie mr bean's holiday .. best la.. ikin dapat student price and buy 1 get 1 free ticket.. tgk ngan my younger brother.. ada satu part in the movie tu, sebijik mcm my behaviour.. especially kalau mengantuk..ingat lagi, ikin selalu mengantuk time kemahiran hidup.. kalau kat mrsm, bila pendidikan islam.. ustaz tu ckp perlahan sangat la.. pastu, ikin akn suruh kawan ikin, cubit2 ikin bila ikin mengantuk.. pastu, siap suruh, cubit kuat lagi sampai tak nak bg ikin mengantuk.. and, ikin rs , ikin lebih kurang mr bean jer.. kuat sgt careless.. ada jer yg hilang.. student card, dompet, mobile phone, pendrive.. just name it.. alhamdulilah, semuanya dpt jumpa bila ada org contact ikin and pulangkan balik brg ikin.. maybe sebab ikin always return back the item org lain that Ive found kat lost and found reception..

I've spent my holidays doing my coursework and tgk dvd yg mama htr dulu.. I love to watched dvd 'CINTA'.. seronok sgt!! not because just the actor, but the plot of the story.. its like the reality of life now.. I like to watched the old couple in the story.. sebab dia sayang 'cikgu ilyas' yg kena Alzheimer the way he is.. not bcoz of other things.. and when shidi as Harris.. such a wonderful father towards his daughter and his ex-wife.. ikin rs rugi jer his ex wife tinggalkan dia.. rs pity to him! sebab dia ckp" loves means letting go..as long that the person is happy and contented with her life".. herm, terjiwangla pulak.. but, Ive love to watch this dvd over and over again.. My favourite actor, Pierre Andre pun berlakon jugak.. Love the way he acts.. and his soft voice dlm cite tu.. ( x taula kalau kat luar filem mcm mana kan?) suka tgk dia senyum.. =) and, lagi satu quote kin suka dlm cerita tu" when there is a will, there will always a way"... and, frm that story, I've learnt something.. "kita akn rasa puas hati dpt bersama dgn org yg kita sayang walaupun susah mcm mana pun, berbanding dgn hidup dgn org yg kita tak sayang eventhough with easy life.. ".. and "org yg paling kita sayang la, itula yg paling kita susah kita sayang"..betul jugak kan? its hard to show that ikin sayangkan my younger brothers.. serious.. bila kita tegur adik2 lelaki kita, dia akn ingat kita tak sayang kat dia.. susahkan?

pastu, ikin tgk cerita the night at museum.. best sgt!! at first i thought that it is quite boring .. tapi, lama2 best la pulak..
percaya tak setiap ada di dunia ni ada hikmahnya?? Allah tidak mencipta sesuatu itu dengan sia-sia. Semua ada sebabnya. Semua ada gunanya. Semua ada hikmahnya. Terpulang kepada manusia untuk mencari sebabnya, gunanya dan hikmahnya itu. Allah hamparkan bumi ini dan mencipta segala sesuatu di dalamnya bukan semata-mata untuk manusia hidup dan berkembang biak di atasnya serta menggunakan segala khazanah kekayaan-Nya. Yang lebih penting, ia bertujuan supaya manusia dapat melihat secara zahir akan alam ciptaan Allah ini. Ia adalah bukti besar kepada manusia tentang wujudnya Allah. lah sebenarnya adalah dalil bagi mereka tentang adanya Allah.
and, ikin rs ada benarnya this statement" Allah don't always give what we want, instead he gives what we need"..
ikin rs sometimes ikin missed sgt kawan2 kin kat Msia.. Miss all the funny jokes.. wonder how they will reacted when they see me again.. Feel so sad when they said that diorang takut yg ikin berubah bila balik belajar dr uk.. Insyallah,I am the same ikin as diorang kenal.. kalau berubah pun, dr segi pemikiran.. dah makin matured (kononnya.. hehehheh..) dedicated this song to my family and friends kat msia.. tapi, ada kawan ikin ckp, ikin still the same old"ikin" suka buat lawak, kuat mengusik.. but, dgn org yg ikin kenal rapat and boleh buat "geng".. bukannya ikin memilih utk berkawan, ikin berkawan dgn semua org, but tend to be close with one that have the same interest and can get along with you.. and willing to give and take.. selama 21 years old ni, I've realize something bout myself, tak boleh rapat dgn org yg very such a loud person, and suka paksa ikin, and ikin kena ikut ckp dia jer, and org yg not willing to hear people opinion, plus eksyen terlebih i.e. bangga dgn apa yg dia ada.. . ikin tend to be senyap bila ikin jumpa org2 yg mcm ni.. sometimes, org2 always think that I am very quiet and serious.. but, yg seconfirmnya, I am very cheerful  person, suka kacau org, suka cubit2 org, suka keluar makan dgn kawan2, happy with what I have now.. and like to makes people happy.. ikin suka berkawan dgn org yg sederhana mcm ikin, coz I will then be thankful with apa yg ikin ada skrg.. just nak bgtau kawan2 ikin yg...

walau setinggi mana kan daku mendaki,
ku tetap diriku yg  kau pernah kenali dulu
walau sejauh mana ku berlari
ku tetap diriku, oh sayangku
usah dikau ragu
ku takkan pernah melupakan
jasa dan kasihmu
sayangku...

ikin surely miss my dear hanzalah this july.. sebab nanti ikin akn susah berjumpa dgn dia.. ikin hrp dia akn peluk bear yg kin bagi bila dia nak tidur or when  he missed me.. surely miss the way he called me "qhakak".. and, the way he merayu me utk dukung dia, "boleh jadi cair beb..".. lembut jer suara mcm pierre andre..  hehehehhe..

yesterday, I went to the park.. best nyer.. Tgk bunga.. main roller coaster rumah hantu.. ada funfair kat park tu..

 

another thing, ikin rs baik ikin bgtau kat sini.. my primary foto yg tajuk "august 06..".. many people think it is my real face.. oklah, mmg my real face but the realitinya tak cantik cam tu.. kan? am i right ? betul kan kawan2 yg dah kenal ikin for a long time?... its quite shamed to say this but it is a fact "the make up and camera make my face nampak cantik".. and, its not from a natural beauty.. ikin dgn rendah dirinya admit that thing.. sure pas ni ramai delete ikin as their friends.. hehhehehe =).. takperla, its up to you all.. tapi, jgnla pulak my best'est' and my old friends nak delete me pulak.. itu mmg nak tempah 'silat maut' from ikin la tu..

itu jerla ikin nak reveal.. hrp2 pas ni, tak der org salah sangka lagi.. and, ikin hope my friends will pray that PwC will give a positive feedback kat me upon of my case with previous medical history..as well as dapat 2nd upper degree for my final degree.. Insyaallah, ikin akn cuba sedaya upaya.. "kalau kita nak sesuatu, mcm mana susah pun kita kena usaha kan?".. mcm ikin nak keje dgn PwC, ikin mmg betul2 prepared jawab soalan psychometrics.. so, samala jugak nak dapat 2nd upper degree kan, so, kena la usaha jugak kan? oklah, semoga dilindungi Allah selalu..

Di mana jalan harus ikin pilih?

Herm, at last, I had submitted my coursework.. First time in my whole three years siapkan coursework dlm masa 3 days.. biasanya a week before the date of submission, ikin dah siapkan everything.. kalau tak kerana marathon interview ari tu, mungkin ikin dah siapkan semuanya.. and, ikin takut if I don’t meet the expectation of my lecturer.. sebab dia selalu ingat yg ikin akn produce quality coursework..

 

Let my share my experience with you masa interview kat London dulu.. first interview is with an audit firm PricewaterhouseCoopers, then, Deloitte.. ari isnin nya pulak with Ernst & Young, bank CIMB and Kementerian Pengajian Tinggi and Ari selasa nya pulak with Securities Commission and Kpmg..

 

Interview 1.. PwC

On the Saturday morning, ikin pun pergilah assessment centre utk ujian psychometric testing a.k.a iq test utk PricewaterhouseCoopers..herm, the questions are quite tough and sometimes macam x der logic pun.. and, dia suruh tulis essay.. and, ikin jadi blank masa menulis tu.. tak tau apa yg ikin main tulis pun.. sampaikan org lain mintak additional paper while ikin tulis satu suku muka surat jer.. and then, at 12pm, ikin pun masuklah interview with the manager..nama manager dia encik Azlam.. takutla ikin tgk manager tu.. sebab badan dia besar and suara dia besar.. masa ikin mula2 masuk, mmg ikin duduk tegak 90 darjah.. mcm lawak jer.. hehehehhe =) dia tegur ikin suruh make myself feel comfortable, and jgn takut kat dier.. masa ikin interview tu, ikin tgh selsema and ada running nose.. hidung asyik berair and asyik2 kena lap hidung (dlm hati ikin ckp, habisla tak dapat keje la ikin )…and, antara soalan yg ikin ingat ialah macam mana ikin deal with clients masa ikin keje kat kpmg dulu.. mmg dulu ada client yg mmg ‘kerek’ sikit sebab dia ingat ikin ni muda and boleh dibuli. But, ikin explain kat manager tu macam mana ikin handlekan problem tu sampai dia admit mistake dia kat ikin.. biasala, ego dia kan tinggi.. and dia pulak seorang executive while me, degree pun tak habis lagi.. but, akhirnya, ikin berjaya tunjukkan dia yg ikin jalankan tugas ikin as an auditor.. pastu, manager tu Tanya ttg leadership ikin as ikin ialah course representative utk accounting and finance students.. biasanya, kalau ada student complaint, ikin yg akn jumpa dean and cuba selesaikan masalah.. tak pun with the undergraduate officer.. manager tu sempat ckp yg senang ckp ngan ikin sebab ikin tau tugas sbg seorang auditor..interview tu last for about 1 hour and 10 min.. human resource manager tu ckp, dia akan call malam ni kalau ada candidates yg berjaya… ikin tak menaruh harapan lasnung sebab ikin tak sempat jawab soalan psychometric dia.. so, I assume, ikin tak dapatla that job and mmg dalam hati tu frust sgtla after the interview.. lagipun, ikin tulis essay yg entah apa2..tapi, yg seronoknya, dia share experience keje dia and at the same time dia tanya soalan kat ikin.. and, 1 more thing, i forgot to smile.. smile pun dlm keadaan terpaksa kot.. sebab mungkin ikin mengharap sgt nak keje tu, and ikin fikir hrpn mama and ayah ikin supaya buat betul2, and kawan2 ikin yg bagi support.. after habis interview tu, human resource maanger dia tanya, how was it? ikin pulak jawab, i dont really make itin the interview.. it was totally a mess.. bila dia tanya values of pwc, ikin pun dok bantai hayun, and then, tak mengena pulak tu.. sure kena reject la..

 

Interview 2.. Deloitte..

10 minutes after keluar interview with PwC, ikin pergi pulak interview with Deloitte.. yg interesting part nya tu, interview tu macam 10-15 min… antara soalan yg ikin ingat, kenapa nak join Deloitte? And, ada tak Kpmg make any offer to you.. and, org interview tu siap ckp, are you willing to work for long hours? Ikin jwblah, masa kat kpmg dulu, dah byk kali balik lewat, and ikin rasa tak der problem pun.. lagipun, my parents are very understanding dgn keje ikin.. and, at the end of interview, dia cakap verbally I got the job.. dia suruh consider the job sebab cara dia cakap, dia very sure yg others firm nak amik ikin as an auditor.. dlm hati ikin ckp, iyeker? Dia ckp nanti dia antar offer letter kat ikin..

 
Malamnya pulak, ikin jalan2 kat Westminster.. tgk London eye waktu malam, big ben and the house of parliament dgn adik.. and, ikin takut nak terima keputusan PwC, so ikin pun switch off my phone..biasalah budak bijak?=p lagipun, phone ikin ni ada masalah sikit, sebab banyak kali org cuba call, x dpt.. and, lansung tak de voice message.. mungkin kena masuk scrap dah kot? =p tapi, duit x derla nak beli hp baru.. dtg London pun guna duit jugak... kena jimatlah sikit.. 

 

The next daynya, Sunday, ikin pun pergi the career fair… entahla, time tu ikin rasa sedih sgt tgk booth PwC.. and, sebab tu,ikin daftar nama ikin utk walk in interview utk jadi lecturer and diorang akan interview ikin the next daynya.. same with CIMB.. herm, entah macam mana ntah, gerak hati ikin ckp, pergila kat booth PwC and tanya what happened to my interview yesterday.. dlm hati, ikin berdoa,  kalau Allah tak izinkan ikin join PwC, mungkin ada lagi baik perancangan Allah utk ikin.. so, ikin pun pergi and jumpa dia punya human resource manager.. erm, ikin tanya mcm ni, ‘ I just want to know the result of my interview and my assessment?’..and then, the human resource manager jawab, ‘ what is ur name?’.. ikin ckp la, nor ashikin.. pastu dia ckp, nor ashikin isa? “yup”.. and, ikin seronok sgt biler tgk ada headletter pwc yg ada nama ikin ckp ikin dpt kerja dgn PwC.. kat letter tu ckp, ikin akn lapor diri on the 3^rd Sept.. wahhhhh.. alhamdulilah.. ikin syukur sgt.. mmg happy sgt.. x sangka dpt.. tapi, mungkin Allah nak tolong ikin sebab ikin selalu practice ujian IQ.. mmg Allah yg tolong ikin and bg rezeki kat ikin..

After tu, ikin pergi ke booth Ernst and Young sebab ikin dah confirm nak pergi interview dgn diorang utk esk.. I become quite cheeky sebab ikin tanya kat interviewer which is the partner (partner tu mcm pangkat tertinggi in that audit firm) ‘tak der soalan bocor ker utk interview esok?’ Dia ckp, nanti kita bincang2 esok jer la.. cheh.. herm, takperla, ikin dtg interview tu pun sebab ikin dah confirm and ikin rasa tak baik mungkir janji..

 

Interview ketiga.. Ernst and Young

Oleh kerana ikin dah confirm ikin nak dtg interview seminggu sebelum tu, terpaksala ikin and adik menapak ke Ernst and Young London yg situated near the London Bridge.. cantik giler bangunan tu.. macam kat tempat executive.. Time tu ikin mmg dah tak der perasaan dah, sebab ikin rasa dah secured sebab PwC have make me an offer letter.. tapi, sebelum pergi interview, ikin sempat call mama, and mama kata, buat yg terbaik utk the interview.. so, ikin pun pergilah interview tu and meet the partner.. mmg ikin tak der suara masa interview tu sebab sakit tekak and batuk plus selsema.. asyik2 lap hidung jer.. and, yg soalan bg ikin mmg tak terlintas kat hati ikin lansung ialah, kalau semua firm offer ikin tempat, tempat mana yg ikin akn pilih? Ikin pun time tu jadi terkedu.. tak tahu nak jawab apa? Takkan tentang bonus kot? Pastu, ikin senyum and ckp kalau semua firm bg offer, ikin akn pilih firm mana yg boleh bagi ikin buat pentauliahan in ICAEW.. (Institute Chartered England and Wales).. then, the partner told me, yg sbnrnya dia nak amik ikin as an auditor.. and ikin mmg dah dpt tempat.. Actually, I was not really expecting to get that kind of feedback.. sebab ada embarrassing moment where tetiba ikin terbatuk2 sampai keluar air mata.. mmg time tu tak leh nak cover la.. partner tu pun sibuk tuangkan air bg ikin minum.. mmg muka ikin mmg merah.. adusssss… malunya!! Ikin pun dlm hati ckp, hah, dia nak offer ikin kerja kat tempat dia? Cuma, dia ckp utk nak bagi ikin buat training in ICAEW, dia ckp, dia nak bincang dulu internally sebab dia kata the cost of inverstment in sponsoring the training is quite high.. and, dia ckp assistant akn call ikin petang nanti nak discuss about that with me.. alamak, dlm hati ikin ckp, mmg serious business la ni… dia siap htr ikin sampai ke pintu keluar bangunan tu and ckp hope to see you soon..tadi baru ikin dpt email ckp dia suruh ikin lapor duty ikin kat Ernst and Young on the 1st August..awalnya??

 

Interview keempat.. CIMB

Nothing much happen in this interview.. Cuma, dia ckp, nanti dia akan buat interview kali kedua ngan ikin sebab the boss of CIMB was not here.. herm, ikin pun dtg sebab nak tunjuk muka and lagipun ikin dah confirm yg ikin akn dtg for the interview…

 

Interview kelima.. Kementerian Pengajian Tinggi..

Frankly speaking, ikin pergi interview ni sebab mula2 ikin ingat tak der audit firm nak offer ikin tempat kerja.. and, ikin dtg pun sebab nak tunjuk muka sebab ikin dah booking nak gi interview.. lagipun, ayah ckp, kalau tak der any BIG FOUR firm i.e. PwC, KPMG, Ernst and Young or Deloitte offer, ayah suruh ikin cari jadi lecturer.. and, ikin ingat lagi, dia tanya soalan, ‘ kalau awk jadi lecturer, university mana yg awk pilih?’ ikin time tu ckp ikin apa yg ikin tahu nama university jer.. ikin ckp first choice UM, second UKM.. then dia ckp, ‘awk ni ckp ikut apa yg terlintas kat otak awk jer.. awk tak tau ker ranking setiap university tu mcm mana.’. then, ikin jawab balik, ‘tugas saya hanya sbg lecturer, and saya hanya perlu ‘share knowledge’ (time tu tak tau nak translate ke bm).. and bagi saya, semua pelajar adalah sama walaupun kat university mana saya kena mengajar’.. dah habis ckp tu, baru ikin terkedu.. beraninya ikin jawab soalan dia.. pastu, dia terus keluarkan suratbiasiswa suruh ikin buat master and phd kat sini.. ikin dlm hati mmg terkejut giler.. tak sangka pulak, dapat biasiswa tu, padahal, ikin mmg hanya dtg interview sebab ikin dah confirm ngan diorang nak dtg masa ikin mula2 frust dgn PwC tu..

 

Petangnya pulak, Ernst and Young call me, and told that my offer letter is on the way.. nampaknya, diorang buat counter offer ngan ikin pulak..

 

Interview keenam.. Securities Commission (SC)..

Hari selasa tu, ikin ada interview dgn SC.. Ikin mmg tak berapa sihat time tu, and feel like not going to that interview.. soalan dia tanya punyalah susah, and hari seblumnya ikin tak leh tidur sampai kul 2 pagi.. and, ikin pun tak berapa cergas la masa interview tu.. ikin rasa mmg ikin tak dapat keje pun lepas interview tu, sebab kalau dapat pun, ada banyak lagi pusingan interview and assessment.. macam MALAYSIA IDOL la pulak..

 

Interview ketujuh.. KPMG..

When I first came in to Malaysia Hall, I checked my name and it was not in the list of interview.. sedih giler.. ikin pun jumpala dgn staff KPMG tu and ckp my name is missing.. kenapala KPMG ni tak suka ikin yer? Then, staff tu kata, ‘takper, awak kan pernah buat training ngan KPMG dulu.. So, tak payah nak interview sgt.. Mcam buat syarat jer.. Lagipun, senior manager ikin yg recommend kat interviewer tu amik ikin as an auditor kat KPMG .’.. dlam hati ikin ckp, what? My senior manager? Biar betul? Sebab ikin pernah tembak dia masa main paintball department game dulu.. masa ikin nak tembak senior manager ikin tu, ikin fikir, nak tembak dia ker tak, last kali, tindakan refleks ikin pun pi tembak dia.. sanggup dia amik ikin kerja yer? Ker, sebab dia nak balas dendam kat ikin kat game paintball akn dtg? =p..and, ikin pernah terkantoi tertidur depan dia sebab penat sgt bekerja.. bygkanlah, pada malamnya ikin balik kul 11 mlm and kul 6.50 pagi dah gi office.. partner tu pun mcm tak byk tanya kat ikin.. lagipun, ikin pernah makan lunch ngan dia dulu masa ikin training.. KPMG yg belanja makan, so apa lagi, ikin pun makanla… and cara partner tu cakap, ikin akan dapat that job..

 

Seriously, masa nak gi interview tu kan, ikin mmg tak make up sgt.. sebab, pertamanya, ikin tak pandai bersolek..and kedua, ikin rasa org tu test ikin based on ikin punya ability bukannya from my muka.. takperla, mmg muka ikin tak cantik pun.. bagi ikin, muka cantik tapi tak reti buat keje pun tak guna jugak.. ikin rasa balik msia nanti, ikin nak belajar bersolek..

 

And, ikin amat bersyukur my mama and ayah bagi support yg sepenuhnya kat ikin and buatkan solat hajat kat ikin masa interview tu.. ikin amat bersyukur adik ikin bg sokongan kat dia and terpaksa ponteng kelas sebab temankan ikin.. kalau tak, ikin mmg sesat kat London tu.. Ikin bukannya pandai baca map sgt.. cepat sgt terconfuse.. and, adik la bersusah payah carikan bed and breakfast utk kami tidur sebab Msia Hall dah fully booked.. and, ikin bersyukur sgt ramai bg support kat ikin masa nak gi interview tu .. kak yani, kak ina, kak syima, kwn2 uni ikin and kwn2 yg doakan kejayaan ikin..macam lawak jer diorang ajar ikin cara bersolek tapi last2 ikin nak praktikkan pun.. sebab mmg ikin tak reti nak guna alat2 bersolek ni.. cam satu benda yg weird..

 

Masa ikin nak gi Londonari tu, my student card hilang.. haisey.. dlm hati ikin, lagi 2 bulan nak habis uni, student card boleh hilang? Alhamdulilah, ada org jumpa and pulangkan balik kat ikin.. Yesterday, ikin ada jumpa Ipod yg org tercicir and ikin pulangkan balik kat org tu..

 

Ikin pelikla kenapa ramai org yg senyum kat ikin bila tgk gmbr passport ikin.. actually, gmbr tu ikin amik masa umur 18 thn masa ikin nak belajar kat sini.. and,ikin guna gambar tu utk semua form application masa interview

 

Now, ikin kena pilih which firm yg ikin nak join.. entahla, ikin dah confuse, serba salah.. kalau ikin pilih PwC, ikin rasa kesian sgt kat Ernst and Young sebab diorang macam bersungguh2 nak amik ikin, and kesian kat KPMG, sebab kat situlah ikin mula bertatih dlm dunia audit.. ikin kalau boleh tak nak fikir sgt ttg hal ni and nak concentrate in my studies.. tapi, semuanya suruh ikin bagi jawapan dlm masa sebulan.. entahla..ikin kena buat solat isthikarah la mcm ni.. and, ikin bertekad tak nak kahwin dalam tempoh 4 thn sepanjang ikin join any firm nanti.. ikin nak bagi sepenuh commitment kat career ikin for this first 4 thn.. lagipun, ikin mana ada special lagi..lagi lambatlah kahwin kan?.. lainlah, kalau yg dah bertunang.. sapelah yg boleh tolong ikin buat decision firm mana yg ikin nak pilih? PwC? Ernst and Young? KPMG? Deloitte?Ikin nak pilih based on location ker? Kalau kat PwC, dekat ngan KL Sentral.. hehhehehe=) .. Kalau KPMG, Deloitte, Ernst and Young dekat ngan rumah family keluarga mama.. Di jalan mana yg harus ikin pilih.. and, ikin takut disebalik kegembiraan ikin dapat offer ni, ikin risau dgn study ikin.. takut kalau tak dapat second upper class..Ikin akn cuba yg terbaik and semampu yg ikin boleh.. and, kalau Allah kata No for me, so means Allah ada perancangan yg lagi baik.. Ya Allah, bantulah hambamu ini membuat pilihan yg tepat.. macam nak pilih calon suami jer? Kuikuikui..

interview..

first interview, i screw up everything.. sue tak dptnya la keje kat shipping company tu.. itulah, nak sgt kawen ngan anak nelayan =p.. kan dpt ngan shipping company.. human resource manager tu bgtau ikin yg interview ikin kul 9 pagi, so, ikin punyala bersemangat pergi pagi2 dr malaysia hall bertolak kul 7 pg.. it happens to be tempat tu mmglah jauh.. bygkanla kul 8.45pg baru sampai tempat tu.. and, tube station dia punyala sesak mcm tin sardin.. and, yg lagi peningnya tu, ikin and adik dok terngangau cari tube.. kena 2-3 kali tukar tube and then naik train.. perghhhh..penat sesangat.. sampai sana, mmg dah mcm hilang tenaga.. kat sana, ada 5 org lagi yg interview ngan ikin.. semuanya lelaki and sorang perempuan including me.. and, semuanya engineer kecuali ikin yg accounting.. ikin masuk interview kul 1130 pagi.. punyala lambat.. nasib baikla ada sorang lagi mamat pun kena tunggu jugak.. bersembangla ngan dia.. dia amik engineer maritime.. sesuaila keje ngan misc.. dia org perak jugak sebab pekat jugak loghat dia.. dia citelah mcm2 ngan ikin.. ikin ni mula2 mmg susah nak ajak bersembang, last2 bolehlah bersembang ngan mamat tu, sebab dia nampak tak poyo and siap kata, jantung dia dup dap dup dap.. ikin pulak, ada nervous sikit tapi, sebab ikin tak hrp sgt dpt, ikin cam tak der perasaan jer.. conclusionnya, ikin mmg bet ikin takkan dpt keje tu.. adaker soalan dia tanya, adakah anda single.. ikin ckp iyerlah, tak kahwin lagi.. and then, dia tanya lagi; any special? ikin dlm hati ikin ckp 'what!!!!?' menguji kesabaran sungguhla.. rasa cam nak cabut jer from interview tu.. but, ikin ckp dlm hati ikin, sabar ikin, ini cam warming up utk interview yg lain..dia bg case studies about an issue yg totally out of ikin punya interest.. gmbr porno and gossips about politician.. eiii, manala ikin tau bab2 ni.. and, the end of interview, dia ckp, awk tak suka senyum and tak suka buat lawak yer.. ikin dlm hati ikin jwb, sebab ikin tak suka case studies dia, itulah sebab ikin tak senyum.. penat2 jer ikin belajar accounting, tup tup jawab soalan pasal psychology.. haiseyyyyy.. ikin nampak markah dia bg kat ikin as an average.. and, training dia, including gi naik kapal.. perghhh, mcm titanic tuuu!! silap2 ikin jatuh cinta ngan kapten .. =pngengehngeh.. ikin ada lagi 5 interview lagi.. ari sabtu, pwc msia and deloitte msia.. ari isnin, ernst and