miss him...

i am stressed with my icaew exam.. selalunya ikin bila stress time university, ikin akn peluk baby hanzalah after habis lecture kat bradford dulu.. rindu dia sangat2.. wlaupun dia suka kacau ikin, tapi, dia tetap jadi penawar jantung ikin bila ikin stress.. skrg dia kat johor.. sometimes org pelik dgn ikin, sebab kalau org lain, maybe sibuk dgn bf kot?  bila ikin boleh jumpa hanzalah?? after exam ni, ikin ada stock take kat company and period peak utk audit.. ikin akn pergi audit kilang..eager jugak nak pergi kira stock kilang wlaupun x dpt cuti raya haji..kira stock ni penting utk the balance sheet for the closing stock.. hopefully, ikin dpt stock take kat supermarket,car manufacturing or kilang2 makanan.. erm.. tgklah cuti chinese new year, ikin akn drive ke johor semata2 nak jumpa hanzalah.. skrg ni ikin dah berani drive around kl.. berani sebab terpaksa.. tomorrow i've got test, tapi dah stress, so kena rehat kejap kan? lagipun time asar tak elok study..

ikin selalu ada kelas frm 9am-4pm weekdays and weekend.. and, bila balik rumah, mmg penat giler2.. sebab bila balik, kekadang jam yg memenatkan bdn..selalu ikin masuk tidur kul 9 lebih and bgn tgh2 malam utk revise..kalau bila audit pulak, ikin x der masa nak balas sms org.. sebab ikin sibuk buat kerja audit and jumpa client.. kalau nak sms pun rasa takut, sebab ada senior dlm bilik tu.. kena hormatlah kan? then, it end up, ikin lansung terlupa balas sms tu.. and, semua igt ikin sombong.. i am not that bad.. it happens to be that i am so tired and exhausted, my brain pun dah malfunction.. takperla, mula2 kena susah dulukan, sebab setiap kejayaan kena ada pengorbanan.. tapi, ikin kerja kuat2 bukan sebab nak gaji, cuma nak dpt the valuable experience..

besides everything, ikin really hope utk jumpa jodoh by the age 27.. but not now.. coz i've got long way to go.. takut nanti dia tak fhm dgn my career.. nanti susah pulak.. wlaupun most of frens semua dah nak kahwin..semoga jodoh diorang kekal forever  n live happily ever after.. =) sometimes people asked me jealous tak tgk semua org ada bf, my answer is no.. COZ, i always meet the wrong man.. i think because i am too complicated..taklah, tak kisah mcm mana rupa dia ( sebab i am not that pretty like any actress or singer), asalkan dia ada pegangan agama, career, and my family likes him, then oklah plus understand my career.. and i just want to be myself.. and not pretending to be happy or someone else..

better stop now.. i hope that baby hanzalah knows that kakak ikin miss him very much.. ari tu call dia utk dgr voice comel dia.. dia cakap 'kakak bile nak dtg?'.. kalau ikin jumpa dia nanti, nak konyok2 dia sampai lemas and gomol pipi2 dia sampai dia geli.. miss him..rindu nak bawak dia jalan2 ngan stroller, suap dia makan, tukar lampin dia, tidurkan dia, sakat dia i.e curi puting dia although nanti dia sumbat ikin ngan puting dia.. pernah dulu mama baby hanzalah warded kat hospital kat bradford, ikin jaga dia for 2 nights.. jadi mak garang .. hehehehhe.. rindu sgt waktu tu.. but, kita tak leh ulang balik masa dulu.. have to face the future challenges..

Comments

[azlina]

kin....baby hanzalah sekarang nih kuat membuli...kin dtg nnt siap lah....jgn ingat kin boleh gomol dia, akak rasa kin yg kena gomol, dia sukat cubit .....sakit plak tu....pastu garangnya...kalu mlm2 minta susu, sampai akak pon naik geran ngan dia..... anyway...bila nak dtg nih????