hard time

working life is hard.. i had no doubt bout it!! Its now a peak period for all the auditors as we need to prepare the financial year end statement.. so, last few weeks, ikin selalu balik kul 12 am- 4 am.. then, next day, go to client's at 9am.. boleh mengalahkan working hours pak guard.. and, my eyes pun dah jadi mcm ' panda'.. sb ada eye bag.. and, everyday, makan McD.. sampai dah tahap keboringan yg infiniti.. tak tahu nak pilih apa kat McD... but, no choice la kan??

everyday, I drove alone, around 12am-4am ..takut pun ada.. so, at federal highway, ikin bawa 110-120km/j...the road was totally empty.. biasanya, at the traffic light, the car next to me, will stare at me like one kind.. maybe diorang pelik kot??

sometimes, i keep on wonder, have I made a right decision? coz, i've got an offer to become a lecturer and continue my studies in Uk.. but, then, I rejected it.. setiap kali fikir mcm tu, ikin cepat2 mengucap, 'astagfirullahalzim'..  tak baik kan, meragui petunjuk sbyg isthikarah dulu.. sb dlm petunjuk isthikarah tu, PwC is the best.. entahla.. tak tahu apa hikmahnya.. sb, I feel that I am so bad in auditing.. like everything new to me.. then my mom said, thats a working life! its totally different frm student life.. and, of course, I am not born to become an Auditor.. ikin always l blur2 and rs diri mcm tak efficient.. not like ms kat uni dulu.. tahu jer apa nak buat.. i feel really bad..

my journey through this life is totally weird.. I studied Science Stream when I was in Mrsm.. then, I jumped to different area i.e. Accounting during Alvels in Sunway and continued my studies in University of Bradford, UK.. coz, I realize, I liKe figures.. then, I become an Auditor.. although I went for Internship in KPMG, it was 99% different from what I expected.. culture shock sgt!! and, there will be time, that I feel like I am so useless in that team.. currently, I am working with wonderful and friendly team members at Yeo's.. (Yeo's is a beverage and food products like Mee Cintan).. After this job, I will be auditing Tesco in March.. Hopefully, I have a nice team members like in Yeo's.. I realize I become much closer with my team members as I see them day and night.. so, we tend to share loads of story and gossiping too while doing our work.. and, we also try to ease the burden together.. its totally about team work.. I do really appreciate them as they helped me a lot and their patience for teaching me yg very blur

Apart frm my working life, I do really hope that I can go for umrah this school holidays.. auditor's life is not really fun at all.. you must have a full responsibility and a lot of commitment.. for eg, I did sacrificed my public holidays: thaipusam, awal muharam, new year holiday for my audit work.. So, for those who wants to work as auditor, my advice is 'think twice'.. the money that you earned is not that much, but think for a longer term..i.e. the exprience that you gained will help you a lot in commercial line.. that's how I motivated myself.. I targeted to stay in audit life in 2 years.. and maximum 4 years.. so, alamatnya, I will not getting married this soon.. (cheh.. calon pun tak der)..so, pengajarannya ialah, jangan kahwin or bercinta dgn auditor.. berkawan dgn auditor pun payah.. asyik2 kena cancel plan jer sb masa keje yg  unpredictable. plus susah nak chill out makan2 masa weekend.. so, kesimpulannya ialah, ikin pun tak nak berkawin or bercinta dgn auditor.. =)